Totally uninteresting blog

2003-06-22T16:20:00.000-07:00

There are so many things going on in my head and I want to put it all into words. As I was laying on my bed ten minutes ago it was like a flowing river of words that sum up "me". Like something that would make me feel accomplished as a being if I could just share it. Something I would write here for anybody to read and then fade away - because what I want to share has been shared. But right now it's all gone. It's like a non-existant burden that pushes me down. I must try to find these words. Then I am done. Then I can go, disappear because what has to be said would be said. People would understand me and isn't that, what we all want - to be understood?

I wonder whether if - in case I ever find these words again to sum up me as a being - I should end this last comment to the world with personalized comments on everybody I know. It would be interesting but it would also be brutally true and thus harsh towards some people. I feel like doing it, I feel like letting the world know what I think of it. But I don't feel like hurting some people with my last deed.

That's why I hate insomnia. It gives you too much time to think.

2003-06-22T10:04:00.000-07:00

I don't understand the big fuss people make about Harry Potter. It's not such a great series... Siriusly (harhar what a pun).
Okay, so I only read the first book but I found it horribly HORRIBLY dull. And don't go tell me "ooh read the second and third, they are a lot better". All you people who did read the second and third started reading this series with the first one. And if you wouldn't have liked it you wouldn't have read the second and third as well. So in conclusion the rest of the series can't be so much better to make even me enjoy it. Okay, okay - each to their own. What others like doesn't have to be liked by me and vice versa. And I am happy for people actually having found a book that they enjoy that will actually make them read and not only sit in front of their TV to watch Martha Steward making your home a better place or retarded people yelling random letters on Wheel of Fortune.
But objectively - Harry Potter is not a book that's better than so many other books people should (have) read.
But who am I to complain? I watch stupid Zombie movies and read comics that aren't obejvtively good. Maybe it's just me trying to be contra the mainstream. I just don't like Harry Potter and the big sensation around it that it doesn't deserve.
And just for the records: out of sheer protest I poo on Harry Potter and started to read Albert Camus' "Plague" today.

2003-06-21T05:29:00.000-07:00

Ribby: A couple of days after I almost died of a heart attack because of the whole pop song issue a friend told me that Studio Ghibli themsleves reacted kinda the same way and refused to have the movie published in Germany if it is altered in the very least way - which includes the Soundtrack. So they onl yused the crappy Natural song in the Trailers, the movie itself will be as Ghibli created and expected it to be. The song won't even appear in the credits. And that's exactly the way Ghibli was supposed to react! Kudos to Ghibli I love those guys!
Which reminds me... the movie's playing since thursday (finally)... I have to go see it next week O.o

As I want to see "Phone Booth"... mmmmmh Colin Farrell = yum yum

2003-06-19T15:10:00.000-07:00

Party at my house last night. Lotsa fun, lotsa alcohol, lotsa homoeroticism. We had girls making out and we had me giving head to some guys... If you wanna see some of the fun take a look at my super-duper-ultra-spanking-new Webshots album:

http://community.webshots.com/user/deranged000

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Leave a comment in the guestbook if you love me XD

Oh and in case you got pissed at me for the suggested yaoi - I wasn't saying that to tick you off but because I needed a good line to introduce my webshots album. u_u *pat pat* You seem a little down lately. Drop me a line some time.

2003-06-15T13:58:00.000-07:00

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2003-06-15T04:53:00.000-07:00

I don't know anything about Gackt but I know you love him so I do this solely for the purpose of showing you the quiz...

Which Gackt are you most like?

quiz by mcvarmazi

I don't know nothing about Gackt but I know THIS is not the way he should look like... I'm so ungackt XD

PS: You must've misunderstood the purity quiz. The higher the value the more pure you are in that area. If it say 100% gay for example it means you are 100% pure of gayness and thus straight as an arrow.

2003-06-14T10:38:00.000-07:00

I'm tired big time. I'm tired mentally of the storms and I'm tired physically because I always have to clean up the mess the storms cause. Today our whole basement was flooded. The water reached up to my ankles! And when I finally had everything cleaned up it started storming again and in no more than ten minutes the basement was flooded again. And all that happens when a) my parents are in Italy pending their holidays there and b) when I finally have a holiday myself and (thought I) don't have to work...

First the storm, now flooding... what's next? Godzilla? I feel like a Sim City inhabitant...

2003-06-14T06:04:00.000-07:00

From Allison whom I never really knew:

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
Category	Your Score	Average
Self-Lovin'	46.7% When I think about you - or anyone - I touch myself	64%
Shamelessness	85.7% Has yet to see self in mirror	78.8%
Sex Drive	97.4% The Pope is envious	76.9%
Straightness	26.8% Done the nasty, but not creatively	43.6%
Gayness	96.4% Repressed, are we?	82.3%
Fucking Sick	97.3% Refreshingly normal	89.4%
You are 75.45% pure Average Score: 71.8%
Take The Ultimate Purity Test and see how you match up!

from Ashley who must think of me as an annyoing idiot:

Samurai. You are the samurai, the footsoldier. You
live your life a loyal servant to your shogun.
You have a purpose and a place. All respect the
great warrior of the empire.

What Kind of Japanese Warrior Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Ronin. You are the ronin, the loner. Your life is
one of solitude. You work for no man but your
self, but will often fight when a good cause
moves you. All idolize the rogue warrior.

What Kind of Japanese Warrior Are You?
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(couldn't decide whether I would want my head chopped off by a friend or not going to die...)

2003-06-12T14:46:00.000-07:00

Man, tonight I lived through the worst thunderstorm I ever experienced. I actually like bad weather but at times I felt a little strange. You couldn't see anything. There was so much rain flying around because of the strong wind it was like a snowstorm.
Thank god nothing happened... well, let me rephrase that. At our place not much happened. My sister's pool was thrown around and hit the window of the big living room glass-door. Other than a big mess on the terrace (I cleaned up later and got SOAKING wet since it was still pouring down) nothing happened. My aunt next door wasn't that lucky. The roof got torn away and now it's raining into her living room. Firefighters came and helped where it was possible.

Oh and in case you wondered - no I didn't take these photos because I love mayhem and devastation. I was told to do so for the firefighters and - most important - the insurance company.

2003-06-11T16:05:00.000-07:00

This is bad. It's 1am and I've been working all day up to now! I'm tired and when I try to write something the letters on the screen start to move. I can't even look straight anymore. Thank god only two more days at work and then one full week of freedom... who would've ever thought that playing video games would be such a stressing job x_x And I swear to god - next week will be video gaming free! . . . did I just say that?

Actually I made plans for next weeks, but I better not post them. People might be offended at my plans and I don't want to be the big bad hedonistic man everybody hates ... shoo shoo

But I must say I love you more and more each day. First you actually like and listen to the German music I recommended you, now you write a porno (or was it a "novel" ^_~) about a gay german and now your true nationality is revealed - you are German! There actually isn't much about this country that makes me feel all patriotic. But still it's good to see some people are meant to be one of us. Oh, and while we're at it: tomorrow we will conquer Poland (again) (no offense, just some innocent, history-ridden fun ^_~).

Oh - if anybody felt like the above joke was inapropriate - fuck you, 'cause I don't care. I could go on and on and on about this right now but I don't - because I honestly don't care anymore.

2003-06-10T14:48:00.000-07:00

Sniffing on terpentine is NOT good. Neither for your nose, nor for your brain... I don't even know whether it's called terpentine... who cares I'm fucking high on that crap XD

man... that's why I love doing oil-painting. You always get high when cleaning your brushes afterwards WH00T! *cracks up* fuck

schabadoo... shagadalic... canana-rama... wh00t XD

2003-06-09T04:24:00.000-07:00

Woah fuck what happened to Blogger O.o The Posting-Menu looks ... uhm ... a little ... "different". Fuck I can't find anything on here XD

2003-05-31T13:44:00.000-07:00

FUCK! I'm so fucking pissed! >_< So today I finally got to see the german trailer for Sen to Chihiro no Kamikakushi which will finally be shown at german movie theatres. And what do I have to see - or more: "hear"? They changed the fucking soundtrack and now the main song is "Paraidse" by fucking boyband "Natural"! I'm enraged and filled with hate and anger at whoever is responsible for this. It may be a nice pop song and all but don't fucking touch original soundtracks fucking bastards!
I'm sick and tired of having everything changed just for the fucking sake of a fucking big audience. Fuck people! I fucking hate everybody!

2003-05-31T03:13:00.000-07:00

Just some random things:

weird dream last night. All I can remember was that I was sitting in an underground train with imouto-chan, Rikki and her friend Eggplant (I don't even know her but saw her on that photo on Rikki's blog). And the next morning I made breakfast for all of them... funky.

People are sick and perverted. I mean I am, too but on another level. See, my sister is a huge fan of the Olsen Twins so she wanted to download some episodes of their new series "So little time" or whatever it's called off Kazaa. However all results she got were pseudo erotic video that horny idiots ripped like a thong slip blooper. OH MY GOD I THINK I'M GONNA CUM OVER THIS! Or videos where the two sit on a beach in bikinis... wow, I can feel my member pulsating in fucking anticipation thinking about two minor teens in bikinis! This is almost as sick as the kiddy porn you can find on Kazaa >_<

Yesterday at work someone gave the Matrix:Reloaded Soundtrack to me - for free. Man I love my work more and more. And you know why he gave it to me? Because I'm reviewing DVDs for a sister mag at our company. That's it! I get stuff for doing stuff I like! Aren't I cool XD

So much for my random post thingy. Hey, at least I'm blogging again... well, as if anybody would read anyway...

2003-05-28T15:18:00.000-07:00

Does anybody of you - my dearest readers (yeah as if I had any) - know someone who's AIM screen name is A C C E L A girl?
I accidently IMed her instead of a friend of mine and thus was directly confronted with her being on my list but me not knowing who she is. I supposse that I "know" her through one of my other IM buddies (some of which read this so maybe YOU know anything about it?). For hints and tips contact me on AIM or blog about it. Sankju *bows*

2003-05-24T05:40:00.000-07:00

One could think I did this because you talked about it on your blog as well. But that's a big coincidence I guess. Actually I was having this kind of discussion with a friend before and he said "well, you're mainly criticising games designed for minors. Of course those appeal to a lot of youngsters who aren't full blood players". Well... if you want a mature game like this take DIablo II. Sorry, but this game is the biggest crap in the world. Period.
And the way you described it, playing because you like it - it's all fine. What I dislike is the way people who have no clue worship some kind of game without knowing it just ISN'T top notch. It's like with the Anime freaks as I said. If I may quote Rick Rubin: "When something special you like becomes mainstream it's as if somebody takes a child away from you".

I also would like to talk about Matrix: Reloaded while we're at it, but that would spoil the movie for some people who haven't seen it yet. So all I'm going to say is that it is better than X-Men 2. It is better than quite some Action flicks of the last couple of years. But that's not what it is about - you (and quite a lot of other people) didn't like Matrix: Reloaded. That's fine, it's about taste. You like X-Men2 better? Fine with me. But still one must admit that Matrix is a better movie since it's so perfectly planned and it all comes together in the end. But again - if you don't like that it's fine. I don't like Pulp Fiction which is said to be one of the best movies of the last century... I ´just don't like it and would prefer a not so "intelligent" movie over it. But that doesn't mean Pulp Fiction isn't good, it's just not my taste.

Short meaning behind this rant: it's about taste - what you like is what you like and nobody should tell you something different. Be it in music, movies or gaming or whatsoever.

A propos gaming. I just started playing "Anarchy Online". Anybody of you folks playing that?

2003-05-20T14:59:00.000-07:00

This is going to be ranting only - so don't read if you don't feel like bitchin' ^_~

There's some things lately that just heavily get on my nerves, annoy me or are just something I want to let some steam off about. First of all, a very recent issue: The X-Men 2 Movie. Everybody has their own taste and that is appreciated. So don't get pissed at me for not sharing your oppinion but X-Men 2 is NOT a good movie! It's okay, but nothing special. It would be a good story for the comic book but for an action movie it has way too less action. The guy who made the movies probably read the comic books since he stayed pretty close and honest to the characters. But he probably doesn't LOVE the comic books. He just copied it, and that's no good for a movie. Look at Daredevil. Yes it was a stupid movie, but it was a great version of the comic books. It featured incredible on screen action that would looks crappy in a comic book (you wouldn't wanna see a fight that ends with the combattants standing on a whip) but was great for a movie. You could tell the director fulfilled a dream of his. Oh and I won't even start to talk about the Spiderman movies. Pure Hollywood cash-making thing. Not even Sam Raimi and the insider jokes can help! So whatever you do, like the movie or don't I don't care. But don't say it's better than the other comic or action movies that have been released lately because it's not. Really, it isn't. Same thing goes for something not so recent: the videogame Kingdom Hearts. The idea seems weird but works out nicely. I especially love Donald. The graphics are nice but the gameplay horribly suffers thanks to the crppilicous camera! I can see why people like this game but why did it become such a fucking big deal? It's not bad alright but no revelation. Games like classics such as Prince of Persia, Archon, tetris or Metal gear Solid (the very old one) or recent games such as GTA and GTA3, Final Fantasy 6, Gran Turismo 3 A-Spec can be considdered milestones. So what's with the huge fandom about a good game that at no point raises above standard gameplay? It's not like I wouldn't wish Square Enix the success I just don't get it? Is it because it's by Square and everything that's made by Square has to be a big friggin hit in the eyes of "common gamers" who can't look beyond the plate and admit that their favourite company made an okay game instead of an excellent game for once? Is it because americans are obsessed with Disney? Maybe I'm looking at all this from the wrong direction, maybe I'm biased because I recently got to review so many things and am looking a lot more objective on things since then (and I'm not saying this to brag about it!) but I just don't get the huge fan-community for such a title... I understand how people love a title and how many people love a title. But slowly it's getting as annoying as the Pokémon cult... or Sailor Moon. Anybody remember when Anime was uch a special hobby and then all the little tenny girls started watching Sailor Moon? Yeah, that's how it feels lately.

On to more entertainment media: the latest Marilyn Manson Album "Golden Age of Grotesque". Man was I disapointed! This is not an album for fans but for critics. I expected another complex piece of art, intelligent lyrics, funky music. Now it all sounds mainstream as hell (even more than the albums before) and the lyrics? A musical punch in the face for critics... awesome. Just what I wanted to hear. 'cause I'm oh so keen to listen to a musician telling his critics they can fuck off because he's better than them.

And last but not least the Blogger community. In an online article I read about how Blogs are booming and everybody's getting one. However the hardcore blogger community doesn't like that very much since they see themselves as some kind of online reporters who feel like people flooding the net with news about wha kind of Pizza they had for dinner is irrelevant. Honestly - I'd rather read the pizza story than your first hand impressions from Iraq. A blog is a medium to communicate with friends to me. It's the only way to keep in touch with who does what and I enjoy it very much to read about what my friends were doing recently. So even if this blog isn't what you would want to see on the net: fuck off and write your 1st-class journalism ina newspaper.

With that in mind on to more joyous things. Since I was ranting about video games earlier, here's my personal favourites from this year's E3 (in no particular order):

- Metal Gear Solid 3 Man, does that 12 minute trailer kick ass? It's amazing to see what those folks at Konami get out of consoles.

- Doom 3 Of course. I've always been excited about it and the latest trailer looks terrific/terrifying - you pick one ^_~

- Half Life 2 Huge surprise. The video footage made my jaw drop to the ground. This looks as amazing as Doom 3 and I never thought there'd be another title like that.

- Final Fantasy XI Online gaming's gonna be fun!

- Karaoke Revolution Konami's latest Bemani-Hit. This is going to groove baby.

Biggest Let-downs:

- Gran Turismo 4 Looks just like Gran Turismo 3 but with online gaming

- Castlevania: Lament of Innocence What is it with 3D~ifying good 2D platformers recently? First Metroid, now this? And C:LOI doesn't even look pretty good.

- Jak II What's the big deal with the maturity? Daxter's name being thrown out of the title and Jak now has a beard. More thrill, more violence. Hell, Jak and Daxter was such a cute game, the sequel seems to become nothing but a cheap "we're aiming for mature gamers this time" copy of the same game, but with more mature content.

I'm sure there's more but I can't think of anything just now. Pretty big post. Was about damn time, huh? Oh well, I'm off for the night. Finally the production of our E3 issue is done and over. Finally I get some sleep again ^_^

2003-05-19T13:28:00.000-07:00

Finally got rid of the "You're all going to die down here"-wave. I mean I loved that sound, I loved the voice of the young girl. But it's annoying when you listen to MP3s and then some funky ass website gives you a sound error. And why should I have something on my blog that I personally hate? Yeah, exactly.

I would love to write about my day today but I've been at work for 13 hours and am dead. I never thought working for a video game would make you have to work too much without even looking at a joypad... E3 sucks...

But all you "cute game" fetishists (yes that's you who play crap like "Pikmin", all kind of "Pokémon" games or that other weird GameCube thing with the cute villagers. You should keep an eye onSony's "Dog's Life". This is going to be trash. Pure trash. I just know people will love it >_>
More rant goodness (about Kingdom Hearts, X-Men 2, etc) is going to follow pretty soon, but for now I'm off to bed. I wanna have a GOOD wet dream about Julia Taylor for a change tonight... wish me luck. Why do I feel like the last grit on earth that nobody wants to share some love with at times? u_u

PS: I was on TV last night playing "Enter the Matrix". A colleague said I had the "Bruce Willis" look while playing XD

2003-05-18T09:42:00.000-07:00

Man, long time no blog. But that's mostly because I was stressed like hell lately. Since the E3 was held in L.A. last week most of my colleagues went there. I was laone with one colleague with whom I had to write the complete next issue. I had no free time at all whatsoever the last two weeks, really. Lots of things happened that I all wanted to post about... but now that I'm posting... I forgot everything XD

Well... one thing for the yaoi freaks (you know who you are). We watched X-Men 2 two weeks ago and I shared a lov chair with a good friend of mine, Love chairs are like common theatre chairs, just without the thing in the middle. Pretty much two chairs in one for da kinky lovers. And while watching the movies we spotted tons of homoeroticism and well... we got carried away. T'was pretty fun... I think I will have to do that again some time.

In other news I'm on TV tonight. A film team from a TV-magazine came to our company to make a little report on the Matrix game since the movie's coming out this week in Germany. And you will see me on TV playing Matrix. Whoooooo I can't wait for the letters from the movie companies I will be receiving throughout next week XD

I also bought the new Marilyn Manson album. Man I'm somewhat disapointed. It's not a bad album per se - it's just not a good album for MM Fans. It's an album for the MM critics. The music is very mainstreamy, but that's not necessarily a bad sign. System of a Down is mainstream as well and some of their songs rock. But what really annoys me are the lyrics of "The Golden Age of Grotesque" (= the new MM album). I expected somethign complex like the old Trilogy but he just rants about how he gives a fuck for the critics and gives out a fuck you for everyone who did bad things to him in the past blablabla. That's why my recent music favourite is Boysetfire. Man do they rock or do they rock? And best of all - it sounds even better as Vinyl ^__^ I'm on a HUGE Vinyl trip, spent about 200 bucks on Vinyl albums that I all have already anyway. But damn, it just sounds so much better...

For all you Anime-Fans here's a good recommendation: "Now and Then, Here and There". The friggin best Anti-War movie I've ever seen. Well it's actually a series, but hell it's still awesome! A lot better than pretty much every Hollywood pseudo-antiwar movie (such as "We were Heroes" or "Windtalkers"). Watch it. You will feel sick afterwards but it's worth it! From episode 3 on the series is wicked.

And thus I end this collection of thoughts that don't even reall fit together. I'm tired... leave me alone XD

2003-05-07T11:48:00.000-07:00

Happy Belated Birthday... I really am not good at remembering people's b-days u_u
As an excuse my present shall be a Hockey player of your choice.

2003-05-06T12:05:00.000-07:00

BEHOLD! The power of a metal dance pad! But in the end I was somehwat disappointed. I got this metal dance pad for a review and well, it's not quite what I expected. The buttons are actual buttons - that means you have to push them DOWN with your feet which makes it impossible to dance harder songs like the fast Paranoia Mixes, Max300 or my new favourite Afronova. It's not like I could dance any of those as a nine footer but even Afronova with 6 feet was tougher to do than with a common pad.
Also the compatibility to PS One was still crappy but we got told that this is most likely to be changed so we'll see.
Why am I writing all this crap that isn't of any interest to you Americans anyhow since this metal pad will be for distribution and sale in Europe (price will be 180 Euros by the way)? Simple - so I have a reason to put up the photos people took of me dancing. There was a lso a video been made. I feel so popular XDDD Those photos are exclusive btw. Only the one at the very top will make it into the magazine, the other two are "bonuses" I guess... but never mind anyhow since they're in a crappy quality XD
Anyway, I am amused. And that although I can't feel my feet after days and days of dancing and dancing. Thank god the publisher came today and got the dance pad to bring it back to their place where they are going to take a closer look at it with the hands-on review I gave them today. That means no more enthralling dance pad that will make me dance although I can't feel my feet anymore already. Thank god...
Now I can finally go on playing Vice City. Man, I am still at the very beginning although I have the games since last christmas... now what do we learn from that? I have to play more! With those words in mind - see ya'all. Keep on gaming ^_~

2003-05-03T10:44:00.000-07:00

I was told to do this so here we go...

Attractive / Pretty / Hot girls (in no particular order)

Maeva - She told me to write this and to put up her photo alongside so here ya go you sexy beast you
Imouto-Chan That skirt r0xx0r so does the new hair. Now shut up and accept it
Ashley One of Imouto-chan's friend I don't know. But asian chicks get me going and I love Pizza.
Ayumi Hamasaki More asian goodness
Monica Bellucci Italian goodness rocks my socks as well. This woman gives the word sex a whole new dimension

This list is by no means complete. But those are the ones that come to mind right now so there ya go. O'er an' Out

SotM: DDR - Afronova Re-Venge (which I beat just today... GO ME!)

2003-05-01T04:13:00.000-07:00

DAMN YOU! JHGFLKJHSLKHGD!!!! >__<
AA's on 6 footers? I hate you! Just when I thought I finally improved... oh well just wait till I have my metal dance pad and then I'll train like there's no tomorrow! For now I'm gonne pack out my dance mat and train some more. Phuck you! *shakes fist* I get AA's on 4 footers and manage to beat 5 and 6 footers somehow but that's it... But I still kick your ass at Lightgun Shooters *whew* at least SOME kind of victory for me ^__^

Oh and while we're at it if anybody of you yaoi freaks (*cough* *cough*) wants to see two guys sweating like hell together you have to come to that Arcade with a friend and me... DDR has never been that much fun (especially when we try to pull of pseudo routines like jumping over the bars at the beginning of the song XD)

2003-04-30T15:35:00.000-07:00

Whoo boy who's feeling like a star? I think it's me. But it's not really my fault. I am going to be in three videos on DVD because I am the only one who knows how to DDR. And next week we will receive a metal dance pad that I will have to test. Now this test will be banned on DVD as well as the normal test of the game with normal dance mats. Last but not least a friend and I are going to work out some kind of choreography for DDR that will as well be banned on DVD (as an easter-egg though). It's dancing mayhem lately. And since I discovered a DDR machine in my town I'm poor and sweaty XD
By now I so would kick your ass at DDR...man that one dance at the underground mall was so embarrasing for me XD But now fear my mad AA skillz (at least on any 4 feet song)

Played some kick ass games at work. Amongst other I played through Resident Evil Dead Aim. Damn it sure as hell is fun to bust some Zombie heads with a Lightgun and as you do so pull off some John Woo-like stunts. Like sitting in a chair with little wheels and while you shoot roll around the room as if it was a slow-mo action scene. I just love that...

However here's sad news for me as well as for most of you. A bubble burst today when I saw Bruce Campbell... he got fat, wears a Matlock-like-beard and has short gray hair. I mean... it's Ash for god's sake! Ash doesn't just get old like that! And especially Bruce Campbell a.k.a. Ash does NOT look like a conservative family father who would never let his kids watch movies such as Evil Dead. I was so sad when I saw that video footage..

Oh well... let's try not to be TOO disappointed and waste some precious tome on the internet... I updated some links ^_^

And I am amused... I am very amsued:

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	High
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Test

2003-04-26T01:38:00.000-07:00

Last night was such a blast. I was out with colleagues and it was just... woah. Much more fun than I probably ever had when being at the pub with friends. And I'm not saying this to sound mean towards my friends, it's just that last night was a night I shall keep in memory.

One of the highlights was the fact that we by accident found a fu****g DDR-Machine! Here in this stinking town! Okay, it's just an old 2nd Megamix (Euro-Version) but hell, it's something. And best of all it offers me the possibility to make a dream come true. Arcades and Pool-Halls throw out their old machines from time to time to make room for new ones. Now since this machine is so old anyway - and telling from last night is not being used too often - I will talk to the owner and ask him that when/if he wants to get rid off the thing to give it to me. I guess I will have to pay quite some money to actually get it but hell, I will have a DDR-Machine in my living room.

Endorphine-Level is HIGH right now XD

2003-04-21T14:36:00.000-07:00

Shopping-obsessed women of the world hear you me! Saturday I went shopping - all alone. I needed: two new trousers, a new pair of shoes and a CD. Now the clothing part... wouldn't that be perfect for every shopping-obsessed woman? Hours and hours of trying that pair, trying this, looking at those shoes... it took me 10 minutes in the clothing stores to get my jeans and 20 minutes in the shoe store (but only because I couldn't find shoes that perfectly fit). That's 30 minutes! Half an hour for what would've been a shopping spree for every shopping-obsessed woman. I am amused by that... but I admit that after I found out that the Marilyn Manson was delayed by a few weeks I ended up browing almost an hour for DVDs XD And just for the record: I bought "Bullit" and "The Great Escape". Gotta LOVE Steve McQueen *heart heart*

Had to review 4 Anime DVDs for a sister-magazine at our company: NieA_7, Ah! My Goddess The Movie, El Hazard and Tenchi Muyo.
NieA_7 was okay. No highlight but okay. Ah! My Goddess The Movie was as great as the series. Heartbreaking story, cheezy as hell but awesome. El Hazard was funny, short but funny and Tenchi Muyo...? God I was so disappointed! Now that I've seen it I really can't understand what the big deal is and why that series is so popular. It's pure crap I tell ya. Not funny at all, stupid characters and although I love japanese voice-actors and actresses (Rikku *cough cough*) Tenchi Muyo gave me a headache with its squealing characters!
/end anime rant

Oh no wait - while we're at Anime - especially Ah! My Goddess. Here's a picture I did, proving that I should be an anime-person:

Belldandy's mah gurrl XDDD

Now you are one naughty girl. Just because you're in Japan you can't ignore your christian roots... well, actually you can. Thumbs up on the candy orgy ^_~

And you should give me your LJ login and password so I can read your stuff. Yu are the only one who's friend only and I badly need to take part on your messed up life. I mean... the carrot story was pretty interesting. I'm sure there's more from where that came from

2003-04-18T10:22:00.000-07:00

So today is Good Friday, an international day of mourning and sorrow because Jesus Christ our saviour and son of the almighty was nailed to the cross... those who are not christian couldn't care less but oh boy you you aren't in bavaria!
Working, dancing and eating meet is prohibited today. All you may eat is fish and stuff that does not contain meet. Clubs that were playing music longer than midnight were closed by cops and may re-open tomorrow night.
Bavaria is the christian state of Germany - all hail religion that is forced upon people. I for myself don't really care and ignored all three of those prohibitions. I ate a Döner Kebab at 2am, I was dancing to some Reel Big Fish music because I was in a good mood and I watched and reviewed a DVD for work (which is thus considered work for me)

All hail religion that is forced upon people...

SotM: Marilyn Manson - mOBSCENE

Oooooh I can't wait to buy the new Album tomorrow ^__^

2003-04-15T13:47:00.000-07:00

Does anybody know how to set up a webcam so it updates pictures to the internet every 30 or 60 seconds or so? I have NO idea how that works or how to sign up for something that allows me to "live stream" my webcam to the net. I know that Lissie has that, but I haven't seen her in ages so I can't ask her. Anybody knows what to do?

2003-04-14T13:33:00.000-07:00

Today a colleague and I played Dancing Stage Megamix (the european PS2-Version of DDR) - two mats, vs mode, the full thing. Doing so made me realize how much I improved with this game. There was a time when I couldn't even dance a minute without tripping over my own feet. By now I can master every song that has three feet with a double A, every four feet song with A or B and every five feet song with A, B, C or in worst case D. I get through six and seven feet songs and that's a start so don't ask me for my bad ratings on those ^_~

Anyway, I kinda feel good about this. Especially since the dancing session made me get closer with some colleagues. Not relationship wise or so, but on a "mental basis" as you could call it. I just feel more like a part of the team now I guess. Up to now I felt like "the new one" but today actually was awesome enough to make me feel integrated. I'm happy, although I felt kinda depressed lately. All hail Dancing games for the joy they bring to our lives! YAI!

2003-04-13T09:21:00.000-07:00

Fucking Microsoft bastard asshole jerk off idiot ... grrrrrrrrrrr >_<
So I bought an X-Box for 250 bucks, right? A week later they reduce the price and now it costs only 200 bucks! WHY COULDN'T THEY HAVE ANNOUNCED THIS?! FUCKING BASTARDS! I *HATE* Microsoft even more now.

And while we're at video gaming. I bought Doom I for Game Boy Advance XD I am so amused by this - the game looks exactly like the PC version and suffers the same amount of slowdowns (e.g. it never really runs properly). But hell it still is fun for some reason... Doom rocks my socks... so does Final Fantasy X-2 but you knew that.

I'm downloading tons of Videos and MP3s of drum solos... and boy does that make me feel depressed. Good news though - I found really good drum lesson and tab sites on the net and am now teaching myself how to bang the one or another drum harhar. Well it's cheaper and less time consuming than taking actual lessons. I don't have the time to do that anyway due to my job that makes me get up at 7:30am and return back home at around 6:30pm to 7:30pm. All hail the internet.

2003-04-06T14:01:00.000-07:00

Update on my last post... the TV thing is cleared up, by next week I most likely will have a new TV set - YAI!

But "Wolverine's Revenge" is the most exorbitant disfunctional game I ever played! I threw my joypad into a corner of my room because I just get mad after dying 20 times at the VERY same place near the end of the level - but thanks to the non-existant continue points in the level itself you have to start over. This game shall be rated horribly by me MWUAHAHAHAHAHA! TAKE THIS ACCLAIM! You fucking hellspawns of video game developers!

*lol* reading through my last post... it made no sense at all XD I just ranted and wrote crap that is so wrong. Sometimes I amuse myself.

2003-04-06T09:54:00.000-07:00

I am THIS fucking aggressive right now... I fucking hate days when NOTHING works out right... Wolverine's Revenge has NO continue points in the levels itslef and after dying 5 steps before the level exit for ten thousand times makes me mad! I have to play through it though for next month's DVD of our magazine.
Then the batteries of my TV remote died - bad news is the batteries are so weird you probably can't buy that kind of batteries anymore. Yes, my TV is so old that Hitler probably used to watch the news on it.
This means I cannot turn my tv on which means I cannot watch the DVD of "Black Hawk Down" I rented and have to return tomorrow. Also I cannot play any games, especially not FFX-2 because it has fucking NTSC colors. I'm going to buy a new TV set this week, I'm so fucking sick of this. I'm sitting around here and can't do nothing I'm so sick of this place. Fuck it all, fuck you, too! Leave me alone

2003-04-05T12:51:00.000-08:00

New webcam pic (to the lower left)... too much hairspray = evil

2003-04-03T11:33:00.000-08:00

edit: deleted the stupid language test because the image was messed up and it looked like crap...

so I'm using this chance to inform y'all that I - mr. untalented lazy-ass himself - just finished a Kamishibai. It is mere 25 scenes but is almost 6MB in filessize (2,6MB zipped)! Why? Because I used tons of "soft" scene changes... and worst of all - the story isn't even good. It's a cheap Reident Evil spoof that is absolutely NOT funny. Besides I tried to keep the files size down so the second half of it passes you by as if there's no content at all (in fact - there is no content).
I suck don't I?

In other news I commited a crime against unwritten console laws. I... I... ... I hate to admit it but I... I bought an X-Box goddamit >_< I mean I only did it because I can get all the Microsoft games for free (they are willing to send press people whatever they like and since I am a press person for two months by now...) I mean hey - DOAX for free! XD
But anyway, let's see how good this baby really is when the games arrive on monday (hopefully). The Demos I played weren't all that great. In fact, only "Panzer Dragoon Orta" looked really really nice. The other games were mere PS2 standard.

2003-04-01T12:35:00.000-08:00

Zee internet is working again. All hail the G's mad computah skillz!

2003-03-26T23:24:00.000-08:00

ARGH! Damnation! Now Blogger's messing up >_< I can't edit my last post because Blogger's too stupid to handle certain html scripts... anyway, here's the last part of my last post directed towards Ribby:
I know about Final Fantasy X-2. In fact I have the japanese version right here because I have to play it and write a preview for it for our magazine. And what can I say - it's the first Final Fantasy since 7 (if you count the awesome new FMVs then since 8) that has some new improvements. And hell yeah the japanese voices are awesome! I deeply and madly love Rikku, and I mean everything about her. Her voice and mimic are the finest I've ever seen and heard in vdieo gaming (not to mention in a woman XD).
Is there any chance you know when the Soundtrack is going to be released? Other than the voices I also like the ultra poppy and jazzy new songs as well ^_^ And as soon as it's going to be released I'm SO going to spend a helluva lot of money on the import.^_^

2003-03-26T23:17:00.000-08:00

GODDAMN I *HATE* the f***ing internet >_< It is down for almost a week already by now! We're living in a civilized and technological enhanced world, the internet CAN'T be down for a week! Right now is one of the very very rare occasions that everything works for half an hour or so, so I want to take the chance to get something off my chest:

@

2003-03-24T15:07:00.000-08:00

I'm in love Do I have to say more?

2003-03-23T14:26:00.000-08:00

Emotional help time for Meagen... well kind of. What I have to say probably isn't really a big help. Actually it's probably more of another mental hurdle but I feel like saying this to anybody who's in that situation in order to not make them hurt themselves. Just be careful. The time you might spend over there (NYC / Texas) will be the greatest time you will ever have. It will be a blast, you willfeel complete like you never did before. But as soon as you get back to Poland it will hurt - a lot. And you might end up doubting the sense of something like this if it does nothing but sting inside.
I know it's not really helping, but all I'm saying is for you to take care... in a way the internet sucks doesn't it?

2003-03-23T05:48:00.000-08:00

Hell I'm feeling down. Last night was such a let down and for some reason it made me feel like everything sucks. So I was THIS close to abandon any kind of social contact but then found how some people still actually do read this and try to socialize with me. Maybe they don't really want to but they still do (and even if it's just out of kindness, but they do it). So it's blog replying time:

Alex FINALLY! Someone who understands the beauty of my "Kiss" poster (not the band, an actual kiss). Kudos to you!

Meg Aye aye sire... I shall read the book some time *bows* In fact I shall check out Amazon now for it [...] okay... checked out Amazon and they have the book listed but do not have it in stock. Bad thing is they will never have it again ;_; But the cover looks awesme ^_^

Meagen ::SHOUT:: Here ya go - of course I still read yer blog... although you hardly post. You really should change that bad habit you know ^_~

Ribby That is probably one of the sweetest things anybody has ever done. We never talked too much, hell I don't even think we know each other well and now my name appears on the souvenir list just like that? Now I feel loved. An imaginary hug goes out to the girl Japan.
And just for the records - you don't really have to buy me anything O_o

aaaw heck, while we're at it why not take some quizzes as well? (all taken from Beckums)

You kill and eat little children, and probably
molest their corpses.

You're not trying
hard enough, though, because there's still
plenty of assholes in the world! You might go
to Heaven if you can thin the herd a bit. The
Lord hates fuckers hanging around and messing
up His Creation, after all. HOP TO
IT.

Sicko.

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2003-03-22T17:59:00.000-08:00

ARGH! I hate this! I fucking hate this all! So I had all those big plans perfectly planned out for a nice little game I would make. Then I started doodling some rough sketches for chara design - rella ynothing great just sketchy stuff. But it all looked so horrible I ended up ripping everything apart and throwing the pieces way. I wasted the whole fucking night for nothing at all! Fuck this all I will never ever even THINK about trying to be creative. Fuck creativity!

2003-03-20T13:27:00.000-08:00

Got back from England like an hour ago and am about to hop to bed and get some well deserved sleep. Three days of fun... alas - stressy fun! My colleagues (well... "colleagues" from our rival magazine but we all got along well so it was fine) found the event a little too long but since this is all so new to me I thought it was great!

I can't nor do I want to talk about the games. First off it still is kinda secret. That wouldn't really stop me from writing about it though because there's gaming websites that have information on those games as well - however friends and/or colleagues could search for the titles on google and end up reading this and I do not want that.

That leaves me with a short summary of the "extracurricular" activities and events. First off - the hotel rooms. WOAH MAMMA! It was top notch business hotels. You can imagine how expensive that would be in England. And we were in a different hotel every night! XD Hell, in one hotel I had a friggin telephone next to the toilet! And the towel rails! Oh my god the towel rails! They were heated for christ's sake! Do you know how awesome it is to come out of the shower and wrap yourself in a warm towel?! It's like a "hygiene orgasm" (oh and never mind the orasm thing ... whenever something's good I tend to call it a "xyz orgasm" lately).
Same goes for the food. We went to really really good restaurants. Whoever says english people can't cook is a liar. Maybe "Fish & Chips" is crap, but the good restaurants are awesome... well... expensive as well. Good thing is that everything was paid by the company that invited us to take alook at their new games. One of the colleagues and me ended up drinking one or two wine bottles a night XD Good wine mind you

Also I received and bought some stuff. One of the press kits (usually a CD with images, artworks, movies, info etc abut a game) contained lots of goodies regarding the content of one of the games which is based on a popular english show. It had toast holders, a signed book, a DVD and stuff like that. However, all colleagues ended up joking about how you could perfectly sell all that on eBay XD (we were joking, mind you. I so won't sell that rare collectible). Oh and while I mentioned DVDs... we had some time at the airport so I ended up buying DVDs and CDs in a "Virgin Music Store". Now you should think that shops in airports are damn expensive but they had real bargains in there! Like two DVDs for the prize of one. Now one DVD is damn expensive, but if you get two for the price of one it is as if you would pay for one and a half in a regular store... get the idea? Anyway, I bought special edition DVDs of "Natural Born Killers" and "Army of Darkness". Also I bought CDs... the "Audiovent"-Album (with the coolest alum-title EVER!: "Dirty Sex Knights In Paris" XDDDD) and the "The Used" album which is awesome. Really, I hardly ever heard a song like "On My Own" which gives me goosebumps and sends a chill down my spine, into ma arms and torso and then all the way down my legs. Really, this song is so full of emotions, especially when Bert screams while the orchestra is playing... I only need to think of it and I get goosebumps already...

Other than that I bought some magazines (of course), and had a great time. One of my personal highlights was talking to some to one of the englishmen (and representatives of the company that invited us) and he actually understood what I said (and I understood him with his english accent). It just feels so good to talk to foreign people in their language and they understand you, I dunno why. It just gives you this feeling of knowledge and thus power XD

Anyway, that's pretty much it. I'm going to bed now and listen to the "The Used" album once more... Although the "Audiovent" album is cool as well... I mean what do you expect from a band that has Brandon Boyd's and Mike Einziger's brothers in it? Although it sounds a little too much like a "Hoobastank" offspring to me. It's just nothing really exciting, a good rock-chill out-album you could have running as "background music" I would say. But nothing you can sit down and listen to.

PS: War started last night and I rant about luxury english hotels... life is weird isn't it?

2003-03-14T12:33:00.000-08:00

came back from Paris and I want to re-state my oppinion on French People. They're not all that bad. Especially the women who are pure hotness and / or cuteness. All hail french women!

That's all

No wait... here's something important. Today I got to know Keiji Inafune, the creator of the Mega Man series! He is now working on Onimusha 3 (the reason why I went to Paris today) and even interviewed him a little! I, an unworthy little scumbag, talked to the creator of Mega Man! Isn't that... like... a mental video gaming orgasm?
Yeah so I'm over-exxagerating but... it's fucking Keiji Inafune for god's sake! XD
Also I suggested him to have Onimusha turned into an Anime, since you could do something nifty like "Ninja Scroll" out of Onimusha's storyline. So if in the near future there's an Onimusha Anime - it's MY fault! How cool is that?! XD I so won't be able to sleep tonight. I feel like a weird Britney Spears fangirl, it's just that my Britney Spears is Keiji Inafune! *dies*

2003-03-09T04:16:00.000-08:00

WARNING - this post stinks of self compassion. Do not read unless you want to laugh at an idiot who has nothing better to do than to bath himself in his self pityness.

I hate myself, I really do. I want to abort any kind of social interaction. Last night I made an ass out of myself for FIVE TIMES! One faux-pas was chasing another one and proofed that I am not a good social person.

1) I went to a party of a colleague but left after only 2 1/2 hours because I wanted to go to the rock club. That sure made a bad impression
2) Since I couldn't find my way from this colleagues house to the train station (I've never been in that place before so I had no clue how to get back in town) where a friend was supposed to get me to drive to the rock club with me I left that friend waiting for a full hour!
3) At the rock club we went up to the DJ. My friend works at that club so he knows everybody. So I myself got in a little conversation myself with the DJ that lasted for only two sentences, one sentence proofing that my taste in music is totally different from his and the other one was me offering him a cigarillo that he doesn't like. Usually that shouldn't be a problem but for some reason this conversation must've sounded pretty dull so yeah - now I have a DJ disliking me
4) At the rock club I met some colleagues who work in the same building as I but for a different magazines. You should think that working in the same house they would know who I was but no. They looked at me as if I was a stalker or something. But to proof that I am "a friend" I bought one of them a Vodka that we drank together. Ya, so now he had a free drink and probably thinks something like "Thank you idiot, I can't stand you but you bought me a drink - fool"
5) Also one of the girls who was with them recognized me. She asked "Hey, you live in Fischbach, don't you?". I have NO idea who she was or how she could know me but as soon as I agreed some people yelled at me because Fischbach stinks. They must've been from one of our neighbor villages who are prettymuch our rivals (yes, we are stupid farmer-boys who hate each other, I hate this place). When I was kidding and said "hey hey hey slow there" one of the guys must've misunderstood that and thought I was getting aggressive and told me to get lost.

I'm going to lock me into my little room far far away from the world. I will not accept phone calls or social interaction - except for work where I HAVE to. Yeah thank you. Leave me alone

2003-03-06T11:03:00.000-08:00

MEEEEEG! I got something right here that might be of interest to you. Exclusive scenes and a short trailer from Battle Royal II. Enjoy: mms://media01.tsutaya.co.jp/movie/br2_toku2_high.wmv

In other news I'm flying to Paris next week... and in two weeks to London. I love my new job, I'm traveling a lot AND I can play video games all the time. Right now I am the impersonization of a person I would've worshipped half a year ago. MWUAHAHAHA I BOW BEFORE MYSELF!

Fun-fact: I'm listening to prohibited music right now XD Geschwisterliebe is a very... "delicate" song about incest and then there's "Claudia hat 'nen Schäferhund" which is about a girl being screwed by her dog *lol* The old songs of "Die Ärzte" are so funny XD

Last but not least survey-time:

> x. birthday : January 16th
> x. piercings : none (thank you mom)
> x. tattoos : none yet
> x. height : 5'11
>
> x. shoe size : 43 (german show size)
> x. hair color : natural: dark blonde / right now: black
> x. pets : none
>
> last....
> x. movie you rented : "Rat Race"
> x. song you listened to: "Sweet sweet Gwendolyne"
> x. song you've downloaded : "Westerland" by "Die Ärzte"
> x. person you've called : One of the editors at work
> x. person that called you : One of the others editors at work
> x. tv show you've watched: "King of Queens"
> x. person you were thinking of: Maeva since I got this survey from her journal
>
> do..
> x. you have a crush on someone : no... well... do celebrities count?
> x. you wish you could live somewhere else : yes
> x. you think about suicide : not anymore
> x. you believe in online dating : no
> x. others find you attractive: apparently... but those people have a twisted mind so they don't count
> x. you want more piercings: yes
> x. you want more tattoos: yes
> x. you do drugs : no
> x. you like cleaning: no
> x. you write in cursive or print : print
> x. you carry a donor card : no
>
> for or against...
>
> x. long distance relationships : against
> x. using someone : against
> x. suicide : against
> x. killing people : against in real life / for in video games *hehehe*
> x. teenage smoking : against
>
> x. doing drugs : against
> x. premarital sex : I don't care
> x. driving drunk : against
> x. gay/lesbian relationships : I don't care
>
>
> favorite...
> x. food : mmmmmmmh food. I eat everything you give me
> x. song : no specific one
> x. thing to do: uhm? dunno... stuff?
> x. thing to talk about : stupid question... whatever I have to talk about with my friends
> x. sports : Football
> x. drinks : don't have one
> x. clothes: whatever's comfortable really. Mostly Jeans and T-Shirt
> x. movies : way too many to list them all
> x. Bands : a lot
> x. holiday : every holiday is good
> x. car : Shelby Cobra GT 500
>
> have you..
> x. ever > cried over a girl/ boy : yes
> x. ever lied to someone : yes
> x. ever been in a fist fight / arrested : no
>
>
> what...
> x. shampoo do you use : whatever's in the dispenser
> x. cologne do you use : right now Bruno Banani, as soon as that one's used up we'll see
> x. are you scared of : reviewing more bad video games *shivers*
>
> 5 things that make you laugh:
>
>
> - When my colleagues Jens and Wolfgang play "International Super Star Soccer 2"
> - Bullyparade
> - conversations with Marc
> - comedy movies and some old horror movies (Braindead rulz)
> - for lack of anything better I say one day when I'm old looking back at my life will make me smile
>
>
> 5 things you love:
> - Food
> - Sleep
> - My friends
> - My Job
> - Hot people and the naughty thoughts about them
>
>
> 5 things you can't understand:
> - Russian
> - Japanese
> - Italian
> - Creole
> - Hindi
>
>
> 5 things you plan to do before you die:
> - Find the "right person"
> - Have sex with at least one of the girls on "my list" *hehehe*
> - play in a movie
> - learning to play one or more of these instruments: drums, guitar, trumpet, violin
> - visit some certain people
>
>
> 5 things that you like about the opposite sex:
> - Beautiful face
> - Voice
> - the body must look "right" (which doesn't mean fit. A stout body can be nice as well) - this includes curves
> - humour
> - intelligence
>
>
> 5 things you say the most:
> - Gschmarri
> - Servus
> - Gott, ist die süß!
> - Warum hab ich die nicht angesprochen?
> - SCHWUL!
(you can translate those yourself if you feel like it ^_~)
>
> 5 bad habits you have:
> - stubborness
> - being way too gullable
> - not being good at repartee
> - being way too much into some things
> - getting a crush on every second girl I see in the rock club XD
>
>
> 5 things you wish you had:
> - money
> - my own house
> - a harem
> - my own private jet
> - good looks
>
>
> 5 scents you love:
> - Old libraries
> - gas stations
> - my Bruno Banani eau de toilette
> - vanilla
> - fresh mown grass or the woods after it rained
>
> 5 things
> > you are thinking about right now:
>
> - My trips to Paris and London
> - Sex
> - Bikini Karate Babes XD
> - My black & white portraits I want to draw
> - what else I could add to this list
>
>
> 5 things that you have done today:
> - Played MotoGP 3
> - Played Dancing Stage Megamix
> - Found out about a game called BikiniKarateBabes (no really)
> - wrote a guy at Konami about our trip to London
> - found out that I have to go to Paris in a week
>
>
> 5 drinks you regularly drink:
> - Coke
> - Orange-Juice
> - Smirnoff-Ice
> - Ice Tea
> - Cider

2003-03-02T05:06:00.000-08:00

AARRGGHH! NOOOO! I finally made myself play Resident Evil Gun Survivor 4 with the joypad which isn't all that bad once you got into it. But now I'm stuck with the fat Tyrant boss and can't beat him >_< I'm THIS close to the end of the game and I'm stuck with a fat glibbery monster who is more swift and fast than he looks... damn

oh yes this was random, I just felt like ranting about it

... and yes the game is good. I know it's unbelievable but Capcom finally made a good Gun Survivor game ...

2003-03-01T16:03:00.000-08:00

BURNING DOWN THE HOUSE! Today the house that is across the street from ours burnt. Geezums was it exciting when the firefighters were everywhere. Well... it wasn't really but you wouldn't believe all the people from the neighborhood to come see them brave men do their job *salutes to the firefighters across the world* Anyway - finally something's happening in this boring town XD

And life is not fair. Just when I thought I found the love of my life (who even spent the weekend) it turns out she's not "compatible" with my surrounding. The love of my life being my Test PS2 I brought home from work so I could test some japanese preview games for next month's issue. However my TV isn't NTSC compatibel so the game was all in black and white which sucker. So I tried to play it on the NTSC compatibel TV in the living room but that one was 60Hz which means my lightgun doesn't work with it (only compatibel with 50Hz)... so nothing works together in this darned household. And now that I bought a RGB cable which should make the game be in color not only doesn't it work and it's till in b/w but also my TV doesn't seem to be able to handle the RGB signal and keeps switching from the AV Program (which I use to play PS2 games on) to the program number 1. So yeah - my love life pretty much sucks.

And no it's not like I'm a dork for considdering my live life being my gamer life *shruggs*

And to proof that let me tell you how awesome women look is fishnet gloves, white shirt and a black tie. I swear to god, if I wouldn't have the least bit of self control I would've humped that girl right there on the dance floor last night ... ... ... now that I think about it ... maybe self control isn't all that good? People would hate me for doing it but it would've been worth it

SotM: The Cardigans and Tom Jones - Burning down the House

2003-02-27T10:08:00.000-08:00

It's been a week already since I last blogger? Woah, time sure flies by... must be the new job. Actually I was thinking about starting a new blog that I wouls use to blog about the video gaming world since I am now part of it in a way... Also it would've been a great opportunity to hop ontp imouto-chan's and Hikari's friends list so I could finally read their journals... but then again even if I would want to have a journal or blog for my video gaming madness I would want to create my own layout for it. And have you ever taken a look at the coding of Livejournal? O_o Holy baloney!
And we'll finall y have another DDR game in Europe! YEEEEHAAAAAW! Today I received the Preview Version at work! It's awesome! Although they cut out a lot of the original songs but then again added a lot of songs that are popular in Europe. God I can't wait to take the Preview home with me this weekend and go crazy! If I'm in a good mood I'll take some photos of a friend and me doing funky moves XD

Fun fact: This post was written while wearing my Larva-mask and hardly seeing anything... I think I have to upload another webcam shot teehee

Also that would be a great chance to make some more pictures of my beautiful longish hair.... I will have to get a haircut next weekend ;_; Oh well... the things you do to fit in your surroundings at work... and woah things look one dimensional with only one eye O_-

SotM: Rival Schools - Travel by Phone

2003-02-23T03:59:00.000-08:00

Went to the irish pub last night but forgot to turn off AIM... so when my sister was playing the "Sims" and received IMs that were actually for me she started to talk to some of my online peeps >_< Goddamn, I wonder what she was telling them. But I wonder how she managed to use her still not so good english (she's only been studying english for what? one or two years?) to understand and be understood.

Oh well, nothing's really going on here. I'm bored out of my mind. I made a little list of creative things to do. So I usually should have something to do right now but I don't really feel like doing anything - did that made sense?

Oh and yesterday I bought a coat. Oh baby what a coat! It's not leather like the one I already have but some soft fabric and it looks awesome. And best of all it was 50% down! YAI! Other than that I bought two DVDs - namely "Avalon" (not the fantasy movie, but the Sci-Fi movie by Mamoru Oshii) and the newly released special edition of "The Crow".
And as if that wasn't good enough my sister bought a computer game that most likely I'm going to play a lot from now on... it's called "Rotlicht Tycoon" which means "Redlight Tycoon". And as the name tells it's about managing a brothel. XD My sister is friggin 14 and buys such games... and now I'm going to play it hehehe... let the pimpin' begin!

2003-02-19T23:16:00.000-08:00

Ooooh this sounds so funky. I went to the doctor yesterday because my chest was stinging inside. The doc told me that it's connected to the cold that I caught some time ago. Now I have to take pills and must not work too hard or do any sports because if I would - now get this - my heart flaps (I hope you call it that in english) might become inflamed. God, that sounds so dramatic and if I was about to die *laughs* how cool XD

Anyway, I went shoping after work today. Actually I wanted to buy a cap and the "Activision Anthology" game but no store had either. So I ended up buying a CD (Pitchshifter, mmmh mmmh kick ass music!) and the game "Tribes 2" that they had for 10 bucks... but it doesn't run on my machine ;_; Although I perfectly meet the hardware recommendations but for some reason the game crashes whenever I want to start it. Fuck PC Games. I won't ever buy another one because this is getting on my nerves. Same thing happened last year when I got "American McGee's Alice" and "No One Lives Forever". My machine is even faster than the hardware recommendations and it still doesn't work! Fuck that!
There's also other things for me to talk about that I discovered yesterday at the mall ... but I won't ... mainly because they have to do with me being a pervert *grins*

But I am still happy for I finally got THE poster! Not just any poster but THE poster! It's called "The Kiss" and is a photography by Tanya Chalkin. I never heard of her but damn the picture is awesome:

Okay, okay so it is "yuri" or whatsoever. But look at it. It's not cheap slutty lesbo sex it's just plain beautiful. I am in love with this poster *stares* O_O

2003-02-18T11:00:00.000-08:00

God since I have a job there is absolutely NOTHING going on in my life. Really, I get up at 7:30am, take the bus at 8:30am and arrive at work at 9:30am. Then I work (or sit around and surf the internet, depending on how much work there is to do) till 5:30pm, go home and arrive there at 6:30. Then I eat, then sleep. Wow! An average day-in-day-out routine. And tellya what: I like it. It just feels satisfying to come back home in the evening and say to yourself "yep, today I wrote about this and that and next month people will actually read it!". It feels so good to do something that actually matters to some people. Unlike school where you studied your ass off and no one cared >_>

In other news I'm shy as hell. I mean HELL am I shy! We ("we" being a friend and me) went to a fun party this saturday where we saw two girls, one of them being the cutest I've seen in some time. But do you think I would've talked to her? HA! No way... Now I would smack myself for not taking chances like that... oh well at least we got a funny picture. A promo-team of "Javaanse Jongens" (a big tobacco company) was there and everybody who made their own cigarettes with some of their tobacco and their cig paper would get a pack of tobacco for free. My friend wanted to talk to the girl behind the counter because he thought she was cute so we went there pretending I want some tobacco. Next thing that happened was the girl telling us to move in front of the photo wall and BAM here we go wearing wigs and jackets. The picture is online, as well as some desktop wallpapers they made out of every photo they took that night. Here's ours (I'm the guy on the left):

PIMPIN'!

Well... that's it from me really... I think I'll go read some blogs now. I haven't done this in some time... And then I'll try to work on that darned KiSS Doll *GASP* A TRAITOR! HE'S WORKING ON A KISS DOLL! Then again - I never finished any of my Kami projects - do you really think I'm going to finish this doll? *coo coo*

2003-02-13T13:07:00.000-08:00

YO YO YO! IT'S THE ME! IT'S THE C TO THE H TO THE R TO THE I TO THE S
Damn I'm feeling ghetto XD I just went playing some billard with a friend of mine and we had one of the most hillarious conversations I ever had in my entire life! It ended up with us acting all ghetto and there you go... The convo itself mainly consisted of some girl's butt that looks awesome in a string tanga to my friend. I can't judge that since I've never seen it but hell it was a fun talk! He also ranted about her boobs but I won't get into that XD However there's one quote that cracked me up and I want to share it with the world:
We were talking about going to the rock club tomorrow night and then he said "Hey, wanna go there tonight?"
I said "Tonight? It's Thursday! Thursday isn't anything we like is there?"
His answer: "Well, in the area downstairs there's gothic and metal and in the bigger area upstairs there... pure hornyness"
BWAHAHAHAHA! PURE HORNYNESS! You must know the area upstairs is where oin thursdays they play Hip Hop and dance music so that is the place where all the hot (but stupid as hell) hot chicas are. God I still have to laugh at that when I think about it... you probably don't find it funny but you neither know the club nor were there when we talked.

And I am a sinner. I told myself not to buy anymore Manga since I don't have the money. But yesterday I just missed my train and has to wait for the next one. So I went into the book and mgazine store that is in the big hall of the train station and bought three Manga >_< The first volume of each "FLCL - Furikuri", "DNAngel" and "Fushigi Yuugi". *sigh* Oh well at least I have something to read now on my way to work and back home...

And I'll go to bed now. I won't take the surveys I mentioned in my last post anymore... mainly because i can't remember where I found them that day XD Feelin' stupid? Hell yes we do!

2003-02-10T13:43:00.000-08:00

ohh poo... I was making such a nice entry and blogger messed up... I guess I'll do those survey again some other time >_<

2003-02-09T12:23:00.000-08:00

My latest addiction is "Hand Maid May"... god I love this series... and while watching the first three episodes I noticed that "Kazuya" looks like "Keitaro" from "Love Hina" who again looks like me. This brought me to the conclusion that I am the perfect target group for anime. I mean since I perfectly look like those characters I can perfectly transfer myself into them. And to proof that I kinda look like those here's a little graphic I made, based upon pictures two friends doodled of me some time ago (thanks Candice and Cherry ^_^)

Also a friend of mine once said that without my glasses I look like "Keichi" from "Ah! My Goddess" and "Kintaro" from "Golden Boy". Distrubingly I also act and actually am a lot like the four mentioned Anime characters. The fact that all those characters' names start with a 'K' is probably pure coincidence though ^_^'

2003-02-06T10:49:00.000-08:00

Look, I really am a peaceful person and am opposed to any kind of war. So far I thought peace can not be reached by killing people. But today I realized that killing is the only way - however it's not homicide I'm talking about. There's only 4 people to kill and the world will be at peace!
1) Osama Bin Laden who is a terrorist
2) Saddam Hussein who is a tyrann
3) Donald Rumsfeld who is senile and out of his mind
4) George W. Bush who is cute in a way ... but still ... just in case
Give me a sniper rifle and I'll do the killing myself. However I cannot guarante a quick death for Rumsfeld. This senile bastard should suffer a little.

If you do not know why I'm posting this you are obviously not informed about the latest political news and verbal idiocy of the United States of America. God bless America and it's decadent inhabitants.

Thank you *bows*

2003-02-04T10:57:00.000-08:00

Damn I'm so pissed! So horribly horribly pissed!
I went to this piercing studio today but left. You know why? Because I was sitting there, waiting, for over an hour! Nobody even cared to ask what I'm doing here or what I want. I mean I see those people may be busy and may not have time to just help me with everything. But how hard is it to ask someone who's sitting around what he wants?! Fuck I hated this place. Now I just called another studio to make sure whether somebody will have time when I come around. The guy said "hell yeah, just come on over and we'll help ya". There ya go! WHo said you need to make a firm time when to be around. HA! Wish me luck, maybe things work out tomorrow...

2003-02-03T11:43:00.000-08:00

Crazy... yeah that's probably it - I'm just crazy. Either that or felling all "rebellious"... I just decided that tomorrow after work I would go to a local Piercing / Tattoo studio, get myself informed and then have my tounge pierced... what's wrong with me? O_o

In other news I played "War of the Monsters" for a couple of hours at work today. Hell this game is FUUUUUN! Beat the crap out of monsters and destroy whole cities. You can grab prtetty much everything (rocks, cars, school busses, helicopters, small towers) and throw it at your enemy or beat him to pulp with it... Also while playing this game I got a little closer with one of the guys who works there. We yelled at each other and stuff like that which definitely was good. Sounds weird, but we were cursing at each other in a good way (ever played Bomberman with a friend? yeah that's what I mean ^____^). God I love this place so much. I can't wait to go to work tomorrow - and I don't even get paid for it. That's how much I love that place O_o

*BANG BANG KOPFSCHUSS*
...
sorry, I was just listening to some music staring at the wall and happened to type along 'teehee' ^_^'

Anyhow, I'm actually done blogging so why am I still sitting here? Ah yeah, peace out yo XD

2003-02-02T09:15:00.000-08:00

Oh my god this is so much fun... I just signed up with Hot or Not dot com! WHEEEEE rating people is so much fun! *click *babe you're hot! *click* holy shit you're ugly *click* helloooooooo nurse *click* XDDD

2003-01-29T13:20:00.000-08:00

*cracks up* oh boy I love this. I added Online Comics to my link list. Only two up right now but I'll add some more when I find the time to do so

2003-01-28T11:11:00.000-08:00

Aaaw man yesterday was one hell of a day! First off I started my practicum which is greaty great. All the people are so nice and cool. Also I got a few games to play and to review as well as filmng some stuff for the DVD. I don't feel left behind or whatsoeverit's awesome working there. Although I must admit today was somewhat boring. During the first two weeks of the magazine (it comes out monthly) there's hardly anything to do but the last two weeks before the magazine has to be finished it's stressing as hell - so I've been told. So far I only know the boring side. Honestly, today I was playing Madden NFL for an hour to get myself into Football games again (I have to review NFL2k3) and then had to make some videos of "Dune" for the DVD (and damn, this game is soooo bad >_<). The rest of the day I was surfing the internet, taking a look at my eMails and Otakuworld forums... ugh
And if it's really getting too boring we can still play one of the japanese party games! They have absolutely EVERYTHING there. They have the underground train simulation, ParaPara Mix (or whatever it's called), pretty much every BeatMania game and so on. And oooh I was watching somebody play the new Resident Evil Zero... KICK ASS!

So I enjoy my practicum although I was feeling pretty sick today. I guess it was because of the Reel Big Fish concert last night. I got home late, I was pretty much dead but still couldn't sleep all night. Oh well, the concert still was awesome. They even had two pre-bands called "Sugarcult" and "The Starting Line", both were really really good. But RBF blew everybody away of course. The only annoying thing was that even to such harmless music as Ska people can poke and mosh to. Throughout the concert I was pretty much shuffled and poked from one side of the hall to another one. And crowd surfing may be fun but after the tenth person flew over you it's just getting annoying. All in all the best concert I've ever been to... well it's been my first concert but it'll be hard for future concerts to be better than this one. As soon as they put up pictures on the "Hirsch" website ("Hirsch" being the location they played at) I'll link to them.

Oh and one last thing to you about Battle Royal. Okay, I accept the fact that the storyline did not jump back to the past (although the girl looked exactly like the one who got killed but they never mentioned she's taken part in another Battle Royale). I also accept that Kawada knew how to disarm the necklaces. But I still think that the shooting part was overdone. I know that even after being shot you can still run around when you're under heavy stress or whatsoever. But some parts were so much overdone (like when Kitano made a phone call). But then again I've never experienced anything like that *shruggs*
Oh, one more question: why on earth are japanese girls so damn cute?

And now I'll go to bed. It's only 8pm but I need sleep. Maybe I'm feeling better tomorrow

2003-01-26T13:00:00.000-08:00

Watched two movies today. "Arac Attack" (I think it's called "Eight Legged Freaks" in english though) and "Battle Royal"
Arac Attack, or Eight Legged Freaks, whatever the title is... was... weird. I dunno but the funniest thing was the Woody Woodpeckerish voices of the spiders. The rest of this supposedly horror farce was just stupid.
And Battle Royal was basically a good movie but disapointed me for various reasons. First of the German version was - of course - censored which majorly pissed me off! I swear to god if I ever run amok it's not because of violence in movies, but because I don't get to see it. I fucking HATE the german BPjS which prohibits movies and thus is indirectly responsible for movies being censored (in order not to be prohibited). The movie itself had some weird stuff in it which I will rant about in a black font. So if you don't care for spoilers mark the text below. Oh and maybe the Megster cares to read it and can tell me what I probably didn't understand in that movie:
First off, if I understood that right the movie starts with showing who won the Battle Royal. After that scene the storyline jumps back to the past and then starts to show the mentioned Battle. Now the girl with the weird grin on her face couldn't win the Battle because she died. Only the three/two kids on the boat got away alive (well, the third one died). And wouldn't it be stupid to show a random winner from one of the past games? They already had that guy in it who won one of the games and helped the two protagonists escaping. Which was pretty stupid because he tricked Kitano by shotting in the air which made him think (due to the microphones) he shot the two kids. Now the mistake on this is that either a) the army men should know the kids aren't dead because of the necklace that always tells their pulse via satellite OR b) the virus might still be active but the kids didn't know there was a virus accident. When they reached the hackers everybody was dead already and no one could tell them about the virus...
Also, what kinda disturbed me about the movie is how all the teenagers all of a sudden tell each other that they've been in love with them. I mean sure, it's their last chance to do so but that part of the movie was definitely overdone. Another absolutely retarded thing - there are several people who get shot with a machine gun or whatsoever a dozen times but still have the strength to kill someone else or even get up and make a friggin phone call! That was stupid as hell and made the movie unneccesarily funny.
/end "Battle Royal" spoiler and ranting

Oh well... now that I'm talking about movies I could as well go on with some stuff. Like how 2003 is THE movie year. LotR was a disapointment - but I don't care for Matrix 2 and 3 will come out this year! And Monica Bellucci plays in both... gaaaah... this woman is the definition of perfect beauty lemme tell you that! Everybody go check the the matrix website for more infos on part 2, 3 and the "Animatrix" which is 9 short cartoon movies about the Matrix. Some of them are produced by some very talented japanese directors - it's Matrix Anime galore baby!
Lord of the Rings, pack your bags because the Matrix is gonna kick your fantasy ass!

2003-01-26T04:59:00.000-08:00

You know what? Forget yesterday's post. I have to live my own life, not the lives of other people.
I really question myself whether I am really that much of an egotistical asshole? I think I always tried my best to not piss people around me off. But when people around me feel comfortable with a situation that feels frustrating to me is it so wrong to speak my mind? It seems so...
But you know what? If I'm such an egotistical ass you don't have to have social contact with me. I never asked anybody for their friendship but once a friendship is achieved I would want to keep it that way. And that contains me speaking my mind when there's something bugging me.

/end short version of sharing wisdom I achieved...

yeah as if I was wise XD

Tomorrow's my first day at my new workplace AND the Reel Big Fish concert... I'm so nervous ^_^'

2003-01-25T10:07:00.000-08:00

my presence is causing nothing but trouble. I'll leave. Good bye for now

2003-01-24T14:48:00.000-08:00

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Seems more like me eh XDDD

2003-01-23T14:02:00.000-08:00

Oh and Mr. Rumsfeld if you read this: fuck you you retarded asshole! The "old Europe" as you called it was responsible for one or another war if you remember right. We learned from our mistakes and want to stay out of a war like that. You obviously are too fucked up to see that even most american countrymen are against your war. You are just a scared little critter who cannot stand the thought of the rest of the world being against your oh so perfect country... well not your country per se - the way you handle things in your country which is obviously not the right way. Why do you think so many people hate America? Could it be because of fucked up idiots like you?
When this one german politicain was said to compare Bush with Hitler people were shocked - you know why? Because she was right

God I *HATE* American politicains

2003-01-23T08:34:00.000-08:00

So I went to the job interview at the video gaming magazine and what can I say all went well. The people there are so nice! And damn, that one girl wokring there (won't mention her name in case those are dorks like me who look for their own names on google and then find this site in the end) is such a cutie. I love 'em pretty girls ^_^ Anyhow, it wasn't really an interview. More of a walking around the house, taking a look at the dvd studios, where they test the games and all that and that was it. I didn't even talk too much with the big boss in there since he was kinda busy. Just a short hello and that I could start whenever he wants and that was it. Which lead to me starting to work there on monday already... this means I have t get up early again >_< Oh well, the things you do to find a way into the real life... OH OH OH ! The first thing I noticed when steping into the building - they had this huge Trent Reznor poster on one of the walls... by then I already felt like home ^_^ All in all I'm happy now

SotM: Pale - Goodybe Trouble

2003-01-22T13:45:00.000-08:00

This family is making me crazy!
I played some DDR - dad yells at me because he wants to watch TV and my dancing supposedly makes the lamps shake and make too many "woomp woomp" noises from upstairs
So I want to use the PC to browse the internet and be on AIM for a while - mom gets mad at me because AIM makes those binking noises and she can't sleep
How about watching Anime Videos then? Oh no, my dad has no encoders on his computer! So basically I could watch them on my computer but there I don't have internet access anymore so I couldn't stay "connected" what I originally wanted to do.
I really hope I can manage to attend the university and at the same time work for that magazine and make enough money to finally move out of this madhouse.

2003-01-22T11:25:00.000-08:00

I finished drawing a picture I actually started September last year. I kinda forgot about it but today I dug it out and finally finished it. It contains some artistic nudity and as wel all know some people don't like that. So I won't display it here but link it:

http://www.fen-net.de/christian.schoenlein/images/lovers.jpg

I don't know what to think about this picture. Should I like it because it's one of the very few pictures I did that actually looks decent or should I hate it for being the best I can do and still not being any good... I guess it's one of those "below average" pictures that you kinda like but in a few months I will look at it and think "Why on earth did I draw this and even worse - show it to people?!"

/end art rant

For some reason I feel like DDRing...

2003-01-21T11:35:00.000-08:00

O.o thanks you three. And I thought I would get away with people ignoring my birthday... Ah well I didn't celebrate or anything. As mentioned below in my last post...

I dunno whether I mentioned this before but I downloaded "Bowling for Columbine" off the internet (for some reason they never released it in Germany) and watched it - awesome! Although there was this one big mistake when Michael Moore compared how many people get killed in America and other countries. Uhm - America is a lot bigger than Germany so you should take a look at this in the correct relation. However I used my awesome(ly weak) mathemtic skills to put everything in correct relation and still America whacks the most peeps. And I didn't like how he got all sentimental about the girl at the end and put her picture on the porch... that was totally overdone. Other than that this movie is a masterpiece. I want to move to Canada.

I'm bored... so I'm taking this survey I got from imouto-chan

1) Last dream: last night... fucked up dream. I kept going from one event to another. And in between many of those events I kept waking up and falling back asleep so it was REALLY weird at times. One thing I remember was I was trying to shoot somebody with a lamp and another one was me in a hockey arena. But we couldn't play Hockey because there were so many holes in the ice so we started to make out with the horde of girls that coincidentially came running in
2) Last car ride: Last night to the Billard hall and back
3) Last kiss: My granny on her birthday ^_^
4) Last good cry: I have no idea when the last time I cried was O_o
5) Last Missing Library Book: I don't get books from the library. If I really want a book I buy it
6) Last movie seen: Bowling for Columbine
7) Last Book Read: last book reads: Dante's Divine Comedy, reading right now: Operation Rainbow by Tom Clancy
8) Last cuss word uttered: fuck
9) Last beverage drank: coke
10) Last Food consumed: those pizza breads my sister made
12) Last phone call: Marc, about 30 minutes ago, asking whether I would want to hang out tonight
13) Last TV show watched: "Film ab", a german movie magazine on tv
14) Last Item Bought: various stuff from eBay: riku zipo lighter, space hulk and the incubus promo life cd
15) Last time showered: today in the morning
16) Last shoes worn: my older pair (I only have two pair of shoes and one I got for christmas)
17) Last CD played: Marilyn Manson's "Antichrist Superstar". I was in a depressed mood and needed some depressed music to fall asleep to
18) Last downloaded: Guano Apes - You can't stop me. But I can't find the video dammit >_<
19) Last annoyance: Random people getting on my nerves when I wanted to be left alone
20) Last disappointment: when I couldn't beat that one mission in GTA3 Vice City about two hours ago
21) Last soda drank: regular coke
22) Last thing written: uhm... what I wrote above this survey maybe? O_o
23) Last key used: the key for the mailbox when I went to get the mail today (yep, german mailboxes are locked)
24) Last words spoken: "23! 23! Leave it on 23!" (when arguing with my sister what channel to watch)
25) Last trip: America, late last year
26) Last sleep: 1am to 10am
27) Last IM: Candice and Freckles
28) Last sexual fantasy: For some reason it involved latex nun costumes
29) Last time you thought you saw a UFO: I can't recall ever having seen one
30) Last weird encounter: My friend Marc's cat skating on magazines like Legolas on that shield in "The Two Towers" (god that was so hillarious!)
31) Last Store Shopped at: Probably Media Markt where I usually get my CDs and video gmaes at
32) Last ice cream eaten: I haven't eaten ice cream in a looong looong time so I can't recall... but I think it was some peanut butter ice cream they had in portland, and damn it was good
33) Last time amused: Last night when folling around at the Billard hall. I was making weird moaning noises to distract my friend and it worked ^_^v
34) Last time wanting to die: probably last night when I was feeling depressed
35) Last time in love: right now (I need to stop watching "friends" XD)
36) Last time hugged: Saturday at that my grandma's b-day party
37) Last time scolded: today when my mom got angry at me for being all frustrated and reacting annoyed to everything people around me say or do
38) Last time resentful: when my mom got angry at me - hey, when I'm feeling down I'm feeling down so leave me alone!
39) Last chair sat in: my dad's computer chair
40) Last lipstick used: that funky pink one I use to seduce them boys T_T I don't wear lipstick bugger!
41) Last underwear worn: my boxers... I wear nothing but boxers for my underwear
42) Last bra worn: The black one with the ruffles. It makes the guys go even wilder after they tasted my pink lipstick. Besides it perfectly supports my man-boobs
43) Last shirt worn: My "Vampire the Masquerade" shirt when I went to bed... I wear some kind of t-shirt when I sleep and now it's this one ^_^
44) Last class attended: *salutes* I graduated last year, no classes for me
45) Last Final taken: the last one I took was *thinks* the ethics colloqium
46) Last time dancing: today when I got out of the shower
47) Last poster looked at: the porno poster of "private gladiator". When I showed it to lost I looked at it myself
48) Last concert attended: to be honest I've never been to a real concert. But this monday I'll attend my first one: Reel Big Fish
49) Last webpage visited: reading blogs

PS: I updated my webcam pic... "I love G-Con" ^________^

2003-01-19T03:04:00.000-08:00

Yesterday we celebrated my grandmother's birthday. She got 70... wow, I wonder if I ever live to be that old. Anyhow, I finally got to know some family members I never met before. Pretty much everybody knew me but I had no clue who was who. But the boyfriend of my father's cousin showed me cool things to do with my zippo lighter ^__^ I now am a zippo elitist. I can snap it open with my thumb, I can light it snipping with my fingers, and I can close it hitting my own arm (I have yet to find out how to do that without hurting me though). So all in all it was a nice family gathering. And I never had a nice family gathering so far... actually family gatherings suck ass. Oh no wait... actually there was one thing last night that sucke ass. The musician. He played old german Volksmusik... I hate that. My sister and I were about to go crazy. We even said that I would rather listen to any of her music and she would rather listen to any of my music than the crap they were playing last night. Other than that nice party and tons of food. I think I gained 10 pounds just last night. I love german food ^___^ I would kill for another plate of that Leberknödelsuppe.... mmmmmmmmh Leberknödelsuppe.
Amusing thing though - only one person remembered that it was my birthday as well XD But that's okay. I didn't celebrate or anything. Hell it's a day like any other day and to be true - the day of my birth isn't really anything people should celebrate. Or do I look like someone you want to party for? I don't think so

I love you for that Final Fantasy comment! Hell yeah it's the very same game again and again just with improved graphics. Although I have to say I kinda like FMV in rpgs. To be true if a rpg has no FMVs at all the rpg itself has to be darn good and so far I haven't played any rpgs that were so good that I wouldn't want to see FMVs along the way... but that's just me. Fact is that Final Fantasy is... dull. It's a good rpg but it's so not worth playing all parts of it

And here's a neat quiz... however I couldn't decide what answer to give on two questions so I got three different results @_@ But all three kinda fit me

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2003-01-17T12:54:00.000-08:00

I hate myself. I am a loser and I have no life. And with the "I have no life" I'm not playing at the "ooh I'm a dork who sits in front of his computer all day" thing most people mean. What I mean is that I have absolutely nothing in life that I would want from life. My life isn't even THAT close to being what I expect my life to be. Furthermore I have things on my mind I do not want to deal with. Things I'd rather put in away in a drawer... or maybe in a box that I can burry in the backyard.
And even if I would want to start living more like I wuld want to live I couldn't right now. Hopefully this is going to change as soon as I finish the practicum at the video gaming magazine. If they allow me to work for them and I can make some money with that I'm going to quit the video store which would give me my weekends back. It sounds like it's nothing but to me this is a huge concern right now (amongst others).

aaah, what am I ranting about... read a survey and leave me alone

1.FULL name: Christian Schönlein
2.nicknames: Chris, Chrisi (which I hate, call me that and you die), Schönlein, Schöni
3.city and state born in: Nürnberg, Bavaria (that's in Germany you doof)
4.state you live in now: I'm still in Nürnberg, Bavaria (which still is in Germany)
5.birthdate: 01/16/1982
6.astrological sign: Saggitarius
7.school: I graduated last year and am still waiting for being accepted to a university
8.hobbies: reading, watching TV or going to the movies, heavy social drinking with friends, billard, video gaming, anime
9.sports that you play/enjoy: Active: Badminton, Running Passive: American Football
10.height: I thin kit's 5'10 in that foot'inch measurement
11.eye color: Brown
12.hair color: Natural: dark blonde / Right now: Dyed black
13.righty or lefty: Righty

*What*

1. What do you think of the way you look? ugly... at best below-average
2. What do you think about your attitude? I'm weird. I seem like a normal boring person but sometimes I can be weird
3. What do you think about life after death? Dunno, yet to find out about that one
4. What do you think about karma? Yeah right...
5. What do you think about love? Over-rated
6. What do you think about fate? Dunno. I am pretty neutral about that. Some things probably are meant to happen, some decisions are made by myself.
7. What do you think about your self? As I said before I can be weird at times. But if I could be friends with me or not I'd probably be because I could do the things with me I like...
8. What do you tell yourself if times get hard? Fuck off ya'all
9. What would you give your life for? Nothing. Maybe if I one day will find the love of my life I would sacrifice myself for her but since that's unlikely to happen nothing.
10. What do you think about your first love? Geez I haven't seen her in ages.
11. What do you think about the first person that loved you? Same person as above. Haven't seen her in ages
12. What are you scared of? Certain insects and reptiles (I can't stand snakes I just can't) certain video games, dying some day and realizing that my life was absolutely nothing like I expected it to be
13. What was the saddest moment of your life so far? I've been spared of horribly sad moments so far.
14. What would life be without friends? Boring, horrible and incomplete
15. Without family? Same. I would love to move out but I'd still would want my family to be there

*The Dream Side of You*

1.Do you dream a lot at night? Everybody does. Even if you don't think you do you do.
2.Do you dream in black and white, or color? Color I think
3.Do you remember any of your dream? Hardly any. The ones I do remember I write down
4.Where is your dream make out spot? Pretty much everywhere. Beds, beaches, I had an underground train station once
5.What is your dream kiss like? Dunno... perfect maybe?
6.What is your dream job? Acting
7.Where is your dream house? Somewhere where there are places to go. Somewhere where I can call up a friend and meet him or her at the café in five minutes.
8.Where is your dream vacation? Everywhere where I haven't been yet
9.Do you believe that your dreams are a gateway to your soul? Dunno

**DoN't Be AfRaId To DrEaM. ThE bEsT tHiNgS cOmE tO yOu WhEn YoU dReAm!**

*Family*

1.Parents names: Hanne and Udo
2.Do you live with both of them?: Yes
3.Any siblings? If so, names and ages: Nadine, 14 years old
4.Do you get along with your siblings? Mostly. At times she can be a moddy bitch
5.Do you get along with your parents? Mostly. As every "normal" parents they really can get on my nerves, but I get along with them quite good.

*Do you...*

1.Do you write in a journal or diary? Only this one
2.Do you keep an organizer? No
3.Do you believe in love at first sight? No
4.Do you believe that every person has one soul mate? I think there are people that there are people you can feel "connected to" but I don't think I have one soul mate I am bound to find one day
5.Do you believe in god? I believe that there is a god but I do not believe in him
6.Do you believe in everyone (even the beyond helpless)? No
7.Do you believe in having a good education? Yes. Without education you are nothing nowadays
8.Do you believe in horoscopes? No
9.Do you believe in yourself? No
10.Do you shower daily? Yes
11.Do you like this survey so far? *shruggs* It's something to do
12.Do you like the person that sent you this? Nobody sent me but I ripped ot from Rikki and I like her. I don't really know her well but what I know of her is cool
13.Do you cry easily? No
14.Do you believe in heaven? Look up and there it is
15.Do you believe in hell? Not a physical place but you can be in a state or condition that is similar to being in hell
16.Do you believe in reincarnation?: Don't know and I'll never find out. If I've been reborn I can't remember my previous life. And if I will be reborn again it'll be the same

*Favorites*

1.favorite day of the week: None. Since I have to work on Saturdays the only day that I can both sleep in and stay up late are gone.
2.favorite ice-cream: Straciatella
3.favorite movies: A lot. But everything with Zombies in it is good... well there are crappy Zombie movies though but you get my point
4.favorite actors: Dunno... Al Pacino maybe?
5.favorite actresses: Again I have no clue.
6.favorite quote: have none
7.favorite songs: A lot... way too many to mention
8.favorite kind of music: Alternative Rock, Metal (not that old school metal with high screaming voices but more like "recent" Metal like "Murderdolls" and the like) and Ska
9.favorite music singers: Brandon Boyd, Marilyn Manson, Trent Reznor, Brian Molko and a few more whom I can't think of right now
10.favorite holiday: Summer. That#s when my familie's away and I have the house for myself for two heavenly quiet weeks
11.favorite season: Fall
12.favorite colors: Blood red and black (although it's no color). In general dark tones like a dark blue and so on
13.favorite flowers: don't care for flowers
14.favorite book: Dante's Divine Comedy
15.favorite school subject: English

*When you hear ___ you think of...*

1.Baseball: A sport that I don't really understand
2.Jeff: Goldblum
3.Dog: for some reasons cartoon dogs are ranbdomly popping up right now
4.Warm apple pie: Masturbation
5.Socks: Smelly
6.Fish: Vagina
7.Nail: Nine Inch Nails
8.Amanda: Amanda... I don't know any Amandas
9.Swimming: Beach
10.Bologna: Beautiful town
11.Giant Eagle: Something to ride on
12.A nun: Fetish and sex
13.The # 69: Again sex
14.School: Graduation

*Friendships*

1.Who is your overall~* top of the line~* best friend?: My friends are of equal value to me. Besides I haven't found the ultimate super duper top of the line bestest best friend yet. It'd have to be someone I would want to live together and there is nobody I would want to do that except for maybe two persons and those I hardly see.
2.Who is your 2nd best friend?:
3.Who is your 3rd best friend?:
4.Who is your 4th best friend?:
5.If there are any more, you can list them here:

*Which of your friends...*

6.Is the funniest: Marco
7.Do you tell your dreams to: Nobody
8.Do you tell your fears to: Nobody
9.Do you go to for advice: Probably someone of my online buddies. They are pretty neutral and don't really care since they don't know me in real life
11.Knows everything about you: No one. Some people know a lot about me (again mostly online people for the afore mentioned reasons) but I don't think anybody knows all of me
12.Do you tell your secrets to: No one
13.Is the most shy: That'd probaby be me
14.Is the loudest: Neither of us is a very loud person
15.Can't you live without: I couldn't think of any of my friends who couldn't be replaced. As sad as that sounds
16.Is the most trendy: I don't have no trendy friends
17.Can be the most annoying: I won't mention any names here
18.Lives the farthest away from you: Cherry in Canada
19.Lives closest to you: Marc and Marco
20.Are you most like: I'm an individual who does not resemble his friends
21.What do you look for in a friend: Nothing really. If I like a person he/she's my friend if I don't like a person go fuck off

*Relationships*

1.boyfriend/girlfriend's name: Don't have one
2.crush: Don't have one
3.where does that special someone live?: ---
4.things you like in the opposite sex: Voices, must look good (I'm sorry, I want a good looking significant other and if that's a problem for you you're probably ugly and I don't care), honest and caring, romantic, should be a little dorky so we could play video games together or something
5.when was your first kiss: In Kindergarten
6.are you a virgin: none of cour business
7.the most romantic thing anyone has done for you was: I can't recall anything overly romantic that has ever been done for me
8.which is more important- personality or looks?: As mentioned before both are important to me
9.first boyfriend/girlfriend: Way back in Kindergarten (same person who was my first kiss)

*Creative Q's*

1.If you had the choice to spin around the sun, or walk on the moon, which would you choose and why?: Moon... dunno why I just like to walk on something instead of just spinning around and that's it
2.What color do you think best describes you and why? Black. Or at least a dark gray that turns black from time to time... recently depression seems to hit me just like that
3.If you could be doing anything right now, what would you be doing?: Have my mind free enough to be happy. Too many things are bothering me
4.Would you ever share you heart completely with someone else? No
5.Which sense could you not live without, and why? Sight. So many beautiful things on this world to see
6.Have you ever written on a mirror? Not that I can recall
7.If you could change one thing you did in the last 24 hours, what would it be and why?: Telling some people the truth
8.Do you prefer sleeping outside beneath the night sky, or your cozy bed indoors?: Bed
9.What is the most beautiful thing in the world?: *shruggs* No idea
10.Name one person whose changed your life for the better: Matthias who gave me one of the best advices somebody ever gave me: live! now! However I never managed to live up to that advice
11.What can someone do to you that would turn you on fully- physically or mentally- or both?: Oh there are all kinds of things that turn me on... just try me I guess
12.If you knew you were going to pass away within the next few days, what would be the last thing you say, and who would you say that to?: I'd invite all of my friends to a huge drink fest and say good-bye. The last thing I would say however would be to myself: "loser"
13.What is one thing that can make you smile no matter what mood your in?: Bully (German comedian)
14.If you could meet anyone, past or present, dead or alive, who would you meet and why?: There are so many people I would love to get to know in person so I couldn't really pick just one
15.And finally, what makes you, you?: Nothing really. I'm your average boring "person"

And here are two quizzes. Take 'em or don't. I did

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2003-01-14T12:55:00.000-08:00

Holy shit! "Project Zero" is one of those games that was solely made for the purpose of scaring the hell out of me! I haven't been this scared since I forst played "Silent Hill". I love this game!

Anyway... the last few days were pretty... "raw" I guess you could say. On saturday I found out about some courses at the local university that would interest me. Problem was that if you want to start at the university in summer semester you had to send your application in until Jan. 15th (which is tomorrow). Which means you actually have to send it on Jan. 13th since the post takes a day or two to deliver stuff. So from Saturday on I made this really big decision to attend an university and sent in my application. This kinda made me panic, I mean it's such a huge step. I just finished school, went on a vacation and now I realized I hade to make a quick descision... bleh. And it's alo so vague since the NC (numerus clausus) was 1,9 but my graduated with 3,1. So it's very unlikely for me to start studying anyhow unless there are less students than offered places. Then they take the rest (which would be me)

Really cool thing that happened though: I sent a letter to a video gaming magazine to rant and bitch about the game situation in Germany. It wasn't even an hour and I got a reply from one of the guys who works for that magazine and he told me how much he loved that letter and it's going to get a special place in the next issue. So I wrote back and we got into a little conversation. So then out of the blue I asked him whether there was a chance to make a practicum at their place (the video gaming magazine is produced 30 minutes from here) and he said he doesn't know since they never had any practicants but he'll ask. A day later I got an eMail telling me I should just call or visit them some time so I could say 'Hi' to everybody and talk about the 'when' and 'how' and that I could do just that any day. So I could just walk in there tomorrow, telling them "I'm the guy with the letter" and start working for germany's most successful PS2 video gaming magazine! Now how cool is that?! Yeah I know, don't answer that ^__^

Anyhow, reading what I just wrote I sound like a big dork... "y'know, it's like, man, like y'know" u_u Oh well, leave me alone. Since I came back from AMerica I did nothing but sit on my ass, doing nothing... yeah that was pretty much what I did - nothing. Unless you count watching movies, playing video games and surfing the internet 'something'.

2003-01-12T14:56:00.000-08:00

Okay, so I think I just found out about the woman of my dreams... maybe it's because I watched way too much Friends lately but she's having the looks of Jennifer Aniston, the voice of Lisa Kudrow and the charme, humor and charismatic appearance of Matthew Perry

SotM: The Rembrants - I'll be there for you

2003-01-09T18:07:00.000-08:00

Today was brother/sister day... we did lots of stuff together today but the "highlight" was my sis giving me a new hair-do. So right now I have braids... I look "alternative". And so you get an idea on how stupid I look I updated the webcam shot of the moment. Well it was taken with the digicam and not the webcam mode so you can at least recognize a little. It still is a crappy pic but yeah, I have braids and I look ghetto XD

And I think I badly fell in love tonight. I watched a couple of friends DVD in original english (we have some of the DVD Season box sets at home) and when Phoebe said some stuff at some certain points I just fell in love with her voice. Like when she is Chandler's secretary in one episode and answers the phone. Or when she just says "cool" at one point in that... voice... ooooooh... what is it with me and voices? >_< I need to watch more friends... no I need to listen to more Phoebe. gaaaaaaah

Oh and I got something on eBay today. Since I thought a little style and class would be nice when lighting my cigars I got a zippo style lighter with a Riku image XD Take a look at the beauty that is my new lighter!

That's all. I'm going to bed...

2003-01-08T15:31:00.000-08:00

There's one thing on my mind latley that keeps me thinking all the time. What do I want my body to be handled like once I passed away. There are three "main" possibilities:
a) have it burried in one piece
b) be burnt
c) sell my body now and once I died it will be used for medical research. However I would get money for that now.
And even if I have my body burried or burnt ... do I have any extra wishes? Like having my ashes thrown to the sea or be burried at a special place next to someone? For some reason this keeps bugging me. But I think I'm either going for the research thing or being burried in one piece. I don't want to be "just ashes"...

And to you... it's a pity but I stopped reading manga and watching anime. Well, let's say I stopped buying stuff since it got too expensive (still download movies and series off the internet). They started to release so many things over here I couldn't keep track with everything and since I am an "all or nothing" type of person I stopped buying all that. Still, thanks for informing me on that release ^_^

I missed three auctions on eBay today. One CD and two dreamcast. I finally need a new dreamcast. Tomorrow ends another one... *sigh*

Something that made my day today: I wrote a letter to a video gaming magazine. Content: how publishers fuck with german gamers. Reason: Konami decided NOT to release Suikoden 3 in Europe. That's right - not a single country or something. Suikoden won't be released in EUROPE! Because as they say there is no market for videogames. So I wrote about the situation, about how publisher chalennge us to get more import games and / or pirate games since there is no other way for us to get it and so on. I also wrote about some other stuff but that's not the point. The point is that about an hour after I sent that letter via eMail I received an answer from one of the guys who works for that magazine and he said how that letter was awesome and it'll get a special place in one of the next issues. Oh and that he lovs me and wants to build me a shrine ^_^ Oh happy day, another video gaming heart that beats just like mine!

And another thing that kinda built me up. I was surfing through courses the local university offers and I found something that not only interests me but where I also would have chances to get into. First I wanted to go for Media Design but as we all know I can't draw and my computer skills aren't the best either so making my way through the tests would've been tough - probably too tough. But now I might go for "Theatre and Media sciences" as my main course and either "Japanology" or "Journalism" as my secondary. If this works out I'll be happy.

Other uninteresting facts:
I watched LotR The Two Towers last night... and I dunno... but why is everybody so excited? It's an okay movie but honestly it's not THAT good. Although I finally understand why everybody loves Legolas. I still don't think he's dead sexy but he's a handsome guy with killer abilities. I wanna be like him, just without the gay hair. And the rest of the movie? Oh I won't even rant about it. There'd be so much to say and I don't feel like writing a lot so leave me alone...

I updated some links. One to newgrounds.com and one to the Hentai Forums which *I* am the administrator of. It all started out as a stupid joke on the OW Forums but when Shael and I got too perverted for everyone else I just created a Hentai Forum... if you wanna be nasty - join ^_^

2003-01-06T04:30:00.000-08:00

You know... if I get on people's nerves I'd appreciate them telling me. I'm man enough to take such a blow, excuse myself for what I did and then leave them alone. So just tell me to leave you alone if you want me to do so.

Leave me alone, I'm gone for the day

2003-01-03T19:49:00.000-08:00

I need sleep... giving sleeping (or more like: "trying to sleep") another shot... wish me luck... I hate insomnia... the movie was good though... nothing special but it was a nice movie to watch on a saturday night. Why am I ranting about this? Oh well I can't sleep anyhow >_>

I need to shut up

Mr. Sandman is an asshole

2003-01-03T19:22:00.000-08:00

gaaaaah... I can't sleep... suffering insomnia. I hate this I so fucking hate this >_<

Oh well, as long as people entertain me *licks cherry* thank you. And while we're at it - I linked to her LJ. YAI! I never knew my favourite 15 years old had a LJ... well now I do *licks again* tastes like Cherry...

In other news we went to see the theater of the Fischbach Firefighters today. It was nice, not as good as other plays they did so far but okay. And as every year the cast got irresponsibly drunk on stage XD They made jokes about like:
*guy 1 pours in the 4th shot for himself and friend*
guy1: "aaah, let's have another one"
guy2: "if we go on like that we won't be able to play the third part of the play"
guy1: "true... I guess we had enough for tonight"

ten minutes later

guy1: "hey there's still some liquer left"
guy2: guess we gotta drink it then"

XDDDDD I love those guy. And one of them is hotness in person. Fangirls - you would've LOVED him!

2003-01-02T06:08:00.000-08:00

cracks up I love that "Take Meish" picture XDDDDDD And other than that I want to add YURI FANSERVICE WHOOOOOOOO! That's the way aha aha I like it ahaha!

And now let me tell you something quite astonishing... Last night I watched a very very good movie called "Versus". Two hours of straight action. One of the best japanese movies in a long time if you ask me. Anyhow - in this movie there's one guy who is my japanese alter ego! He looks perectly like me just japanese. Which means if I was japanese I would look like him! Get it? And to proof this I have a picture. Look! He even wears pullovers like I do, a necklace like I do and has almost the same glasses as I! The shape of his face and the hair! It is japanese Chris! WHOO
Other than that this movie is just perfect. One of the coolest anti-hero main person (who is drop dead sexy btw) (and trust me, when he's jumping into the leather clothes and going berserk he's even sexier), three killers one of which is a sexy little bitch, one totally fucked up madman, two cops one of which is a dipshit the other one's a smartass and lots of Zombies and gore. Oh and for the records - it has a yaoi moment with my japanese alter ego XD
All in all this movie is an anime with real actors. No really, this movie could as well be your perfect "martial arts in a mystic setting"-anime. Go watch it I COMMAND YOU!

And I had a WEIRD dream tonight. But it was good in a way. As if I was part of a Drama movie. I wish you could make back-up copies of your dreams and watch them over and over again. I very lively remember how Sylvia Saint played my mother XD (no sex at all though - my mom just looked like Sylvia Saint)

mmmmmmmmmh.... Sylvia Saint

2003-01-01T07:00:00.000-08:00

ungh crappy new year everyone

(don't read this post if you don't have to, I'm just bitching and ranting in order to vent my depression and agression)

I hate New Year's Eve. At least when it's as crappy as last year - oh and this year of course. Never in my life, never ever again will I celebrate New Year's at some private house party. I didn't even get drunk so the highlight of the evening was when I finally got to go >_<
Let me tell you how the night went:

- Arriving there, starting to drink (with the obvious aim of getting drunk)
- Playing a drinking game which was so crappy we skipped the idea
- Playing another game where you have to guess what celebrity you are
- Going the the gas station to buy some cigarillos so we would have something to smoke but the gas station was closed. So we got regular cigarettes (which I don't like)
- People split up and groups co-existed somewhere around the house. Two of my friends (I usually hang out with them) and me were sitting in the living room talking
- After being halfway drunk I wanted to get really wasted and told the mixer (we had one guy who professionally mixes drinks) to gimme something that would really knock me out. He gave me something that was strong, but tasted so disgusting I didn't even drink half of it
- At midnight we all drank sparkling whine and watched the fireworks OUT OF THE FUCKING KITCHEN WINDOW! (and, other than the common routine of hugging and kissing everybody we did nothing. We said "happy new year" and that was it. It's not really about the hugging and the kissing, but this midnight was like any other boring midnight)
- Actually we wanted to go out partying somewhere but we decided to stay at their place and play a game of fucking "Risk" I was not drunk anymore at that point
- After being done playing "Risk" I made Alex battle me in "Soul Blade" which they had there for PS1
- After I beat the living crap out of Alex I finally went home

Never ever again am I celebrating New Year's Eve at some crappy house party. I'd rather stay home and celebrate with my family in the basement. There I know that everybody's getting drunk like hell and partying it out at least. I hate New Year's

Okay I'm done bitching. Fuck you all, leave me alone. I hate people

2002-12-30T06:04:00.000-08:00

First off, I have to start this post with something really serious and very important to me:
MEG DON'T! "The Church" is a horribly bad movie. It sucks, it sucks big time trust me! It's worse than Cannibal Holocaust! I probably can get you whatever DVD you want (well, if you have a code free dvd player) but don't ever wish for a movie like "The Church"

Okay... now for the regular bloging routine ^_^ I finally started playing GTA III Vice City. Oh shit this is FUN! KILL! DESTROY! BURN DOWN! MWAHAHAHAHAHA! I love stealing a Motocross bike, riding it on the beach and shooting all the people sunbathing with my Uzi ^___^ I'm sorry but it's fun as hell. And as soon as the Cops try to get you (which they don't due to their crappy cars not being fast enough on sand) you can shoot their cars till they explode. Sure, sooner or later they'll get you, but until they do it's FUUUUUUUUN!

I downloaded an mp3 of Avril Lavigne singing System of a Down's "Chop Suey"... Avril Lavigne sucks XD I must admit this is a hillarious mp3 though
I also downloaded something else very VERY funny. But while it is hillarious it is very nasty so I won't get into details. Let's just mention two f-words: fags and fists XDDD
And the last funny person of the day (but in a negative way) is some fat chick who wants to sue MCDonalds for making her fat. This girl should be shot. It's like people who sue Marlboro because smoking is bad... well idiots DON'T SMOKE DON'T DRINK DON'T EAT FAST FOOD! IT'S NOT HEALTHY! And if you do don't fucking sue the producers. How fucking stupid are some people >_< I don't sue the pub because I spent 40 bucks on Tequila this weekend and am broke now. It was my own goddamn fault I got irresponsibly drunk and paid one round after another *lol* In the end of course I could sue them because they gave me more instead of telling me to go home but thank god I am not a fucking stupid morron. Irresponsible and immature maybe, but not stupid.

And now excuse me. I have a bike to steal, people to kill and houses to blow up

2002-12-28T06:16:00.000-08:00

I know there are lots of "Lord of the Rings" Fans out there so this might be of interest to you:
http://www.spiegel.de/spiegel/0,1518,228264,00.html

And since not many of you speak german I'll translate:
Stephen Saphiro reproaches "LotR"-Director Peter Jackson with rascistic tendencies. It seems like the physiognomy of the Orcs has a certain association for the english professor/scientist of literature.

"Looking at the evil Orcs with their dark skin color and paintings on their faces makes it hard for one not to think of the Aboriginies", he says. Even the novel was very rascistic already, says the 38 year old scientist. The Author John R. R. Tolkien wrote about his fears of foreign cultures.

"When the 'Lord of the Rings' was written about 50 years ago England was about to lose its colonies and the immigrant ships from the caribian islands were landing", says Saphiro. That made Tolkien see the peaceful Midlands (where he lived at that time) at risk: "The Auenland, the homeland of the Hobbits, represents the Midlands."

However, how to write a political correct Fantasy-Novel was perfectly shown by Joanne Rowling and her "Harry Potter" series: "Rowling loves the pre-modern society as well", says Saphiro, "but hers is multi-cultural."

Okay, I'm not a big Fan of the Lord of the Rings. It was an okay movie and I couldn't care less about people criticising or loving it. But THIS is the most retarded thing I heard in a long time. Does that mean that every Pen&Paper RPG player who ever killed an Orc is - even if he doesn't know it - a rascist? And what about the different cultures in LotR like Elvens, Dwarfes, Humans - they fight together don't they?
This is a very delicate topic to me since Germany is the only country in Europe (and with Australia the only country in the world) where media (i.e. books, music, movies, video games) can be prohibited. And that prohibition spawned some of the weirdest controversies... (anybody heard about "Atari Teenage Riot"?).
I like when people have their own ideas of things and (constructively) criticise but I think this is going a little too far. Next thing they tell us is that "James Bond" teaches men how to be polygamistic and that "Harry Potter" is the bible for pedophiliacs.

2002-12-27T03:51:00.000-08:00

Ahhhh finally. Christmas is over. No more family reunions, no more christmas music on the radio. God it fells good to be alive again. And now, since everybody seems to be doing it, an official list of all the christmas goodies ze Chris got:

~ Belinea 15'' Flatscreen
~ a pair of new shoes
~ GTA III Vice City
~ USA Calendar (since I went to America, liked it and want to go again my uncle thought I'd enjoy this calendar with 53 potential places to visit - and heck I do some of the photos are awesome in that one)
~ 60 $ in total cash
~ socks (you get socks EVERY year, at least one pair)
~ sweets
~ a little milk can that looks like a boob (get it? now when you want to pour milk into your coffee, you get it directly from the boob, it's supposed to be a funny/perverted male thing)
~ 2 perfumes (Bruno Banani and Carlo Colucci)
~ along with the perfumes 2 shower gels
~ one extra pack of Puma Sports shower gel (do I really stink so much that people have to give me three different shower gels and 2 different perfumes?)
~ a movie ticket

All in all I would say it was a somewhat succesfull christmas...

And since christmas is over I finally took down that horribly gay christmas webcam shot XD Oh a apropos gay. If you like yaoi ask me for the yaoi video on AIM. I already sent it to Imouto-chan and I think she liked it. It has lots of perv yaoi jokes in it (no hardcore though). It's a music video that was made for yaoi con, and hell even I liked it XD

Ah yes, and now it's back to downloading. I'm getting hundreds of old SNES Roms (and I mean literally, hundreds, by the time I'm finished it'll be a few thousand). Ah yes, the good old times...

Oh one more thing - for some odd reason my FTP program disappeared. For now I'm running a 30 days trial version of WS_FTP Pro but when these 30 days are over I will need something else. So if anybody knows where to get a good (and free!) FTP program I would be very thankful if you would tell me where to get it.

2002-12-26T05:12:00.000-08:00

What? That was one of the pics I showed you? Woah, I didn't recognize that ^_^' And it really was the complete version? WIth the landmap on fabric and the handbook bound in leather? For 30?! Woah! I love you! (I mentioned that already, but I have to mention that again)

On another note - the webcam shot disturbs me... I need a new one soon. very soon. I'll get one today I think XD

And that's pretty much it. I really don't know what to blog about other than I already am sick and tired of christmas again (it's stressing for me every year. 22nd = cousin's birthday; 24th = holy night + birthday of my aunt; 25th = celebrating christmas with relatives in nuremburg; 26th = another cousin's birthday). I didn't even have the time to play GTA3 Vice City so far! >_< I hope this day will be over soon so everybody leaves me alone... *sigh*

And I want to celebrate christmas in Sidney ... why? Because they celebrate it like this ;_;

2002-12-25T12:00:00.000-08:00

Okay, okay okay... christmas is over and hell, I got lots of cool stuff. Ya ya ya it's not about getting, but giving - but be honest. Don't you love getting stuff as well? Like when it's "GTA III Vice City" a new pair of shoes, or a "Belinea PC Flatscreen". DAMN STRAIGHT BABY! This flatscreen is so sharp my eyes bleed every time I look at it. I tell ya, internet porn never looked that good *cracks up* Oh and I also got lots of perfume and shower gel stuff. You know I really like it (especially the Bruno Banani perfume my sister got me) but if you get so much perfume that either means you stink or people couldn't think of anything good and just got you what they get everyone else... I sure hope it's the last one... *sniff sniffs*

A propos internet porn. I got ONE oral sex donation! JUST ONE! I mean that one will be worth it I'm sure (thank you again - you know who you are ^_____^ and hell I appreciate that, tell me time and place and I'll be there ^______^) Anyhow - christmas might be over but I'm taking donations throughout the year. So go for it donate donate! Please? *puppy eyes* (look who's desperate)

Oh and I bought the new "Reel Big Fish" album. Kinda sounds like... Blink182 or Sum41 trying to sound like Reel Big Fish. Too bad they kinda changed (but did not improve). Oh well, still a good album. Listen to it a couple of times and you fall in love with it. Especially the first two songs are AWESOME *jams to RBF* And I so can't wait till Jan. 27th - for that will be the day I see Reel Big Fish in concert. DUNDUNDUNDUN

Oh and to you: First off thank you so very much. I owe you - or if you want it's not me owing you but you owning my sorry ass. I love you forever for doing that for me. But there's something that kinda freaks me out. That picture you posted ... the first thing I noticed wasn't the game but the surrounding looking 100% like our floor in this house... O_o Anyway, I'll go see whether I can get my hands on a mod-chip and then see whether I can send you some money somewhow. Again thank you so much *hugs*

Okay folks, I gotta go play "Alien vs. Predator 2" on my new flatscreen now ^_______^

2002-12-23T03:02:00.000-08:00

Christmas is close... tomorrow is the day (well, in America it's in two days for some stupid reason, but that's not my fault) that is said to be the festival of love. So while you're all at loving one another why not give love to someone else? Like me! Hey, I still accept oral sex donations and haven't received any in quite some time. It's about time I get some again! So make someone a gift, and give him (that would be me) love... oral love YAI!

And if no one donates I'll be pissed. It's not like my thing is poisonous or something. AND I am one of the few guys that warn you so you don't even have to swallow *laughs* Am I really typing this on my blog? XD

PS: New super-duper erotic special christmas webcam shot... I looooove to lick my "candy canes"

2002-12-22T13:38:00.000-08:00

So I just watched "We Were Soldiers" with Mel Gibson (I didn't watch it with Mel Gibson per se - he was in the movie! *duh*)... and I must say I'm shaked. Very good movie, very intense. Although there were two things that really bugged me. First off the way they showed Mel Gibson as the big hero in the end who cries for his soldiers and hates himself for not dying while all his men died. I've never been to war so I can't judge this but it gave the movie that patriotism and heroism touch that was avoided throughout the movie itself. The second thing that I didn't like was how the movie was supposed to be something different, how it was to show that soldiers aren't just soldiers but brothers, husbands, fathers... yeah so the movie showed that - for like 5 minutes when the wifes received the letters. *duh*
Other than that - as I said - finally a good american war movie. Along with "Saving Private Ryan" (which in the end is a very patriotic movie, but nonetheless very good) and the series "Band of Brothers" so far the only good american war movie. Now I can't wait to watch "Windtalker"...

Oh, but one more thing. I already argued with my dad about that and came to the conclusion that everybody has to judge about this themselves and has to interpret the movie the way they want. Anyhow: the original title of the movie is, as mentioned "We Were Soldiers". Now the german title is "Wir waren Helden" which means "We Were Heroes". Now this is where I argued with my dad. In my eyes this movies wasn't about heroes (although Mel Gibson was supposed to be on, I admit that). It was about soldiers and what they are. It showed war the way it was - Americans aren't heroes, they died and killed just as the Vietnamese did. There was no good and bad, no American or Vietnamese side. All there was were lots of soldiers who had lives hidden behind the ugly face of war. Soldiers, men, brothers, husbands, fathers who lost their lives in war - no heroes.

Woah... now that concludes my pointless movie rant. Wheeee I love to discuss stuff like that XD Maybe I should start a movie website. After all I still have webspace I don't really use... well I use it in a way (the irish conspiracy) but it's old and no one pays attention anyhow... I think I'll discuss this delicate topic with a friend...

PS: Two new links, one to GameFAQs and one to Direct Connect

2002-12-21T15:43:00.000-08:00

Woah! They just aired "Jin Roh" on TV and it was great! First off the german dub was excellent! I'm so not used to this since we're cursed with bad Dragon Ball and Sailor Moon dubs. Which reminds me to inform you that from January 7th on they will regularly air "Ah! My Mini-Goddess" on RTL2, the same channel that has Hamtaro, Dragon Ball, Detective Conan and all that stuff, thought you might want to know.
Anyhow, Jin Roh was such a good movie. Very thrilling and the way they interpreted the fairy tale of "Rotkäppchen" (which was the main plot in a way) was just awesome. And I LOOOOVED the battle uniforms! I WANT ONE! XD And next weekend they'll air "X - The Movie" Oooooh I'm starting to like german TV

And now guess what? That was my day really! I worked, got home, rendered, ate, watched TV... the rendering of my room looks good so far btw. Not like anybody would be interested I'll share anyhow. In other "dorky" news I returned to the Otakuworld Forums since now I have my own flatrate and am on all the time anyway.

Blog-related stuff: I updated the links. I added a new group called "Things to do in Nuremburg when you're dead" (a play on words with the movie title "Things to do in Denver when you're dead") That group contains my favourite stuff to do in Nuremburg *duh* Movie theatres, radio stations, bars and clubs. Maybe you might need it some time - and if not I don't care. Shove it up your butt or wherever 'cause I like to visit those websites - and therefor the links stay! HA! So it is said so it shall be done!

Who reads this crap anyway?

2002-12-20T15:36:00.000-08:00

Aaaaah, the last two days were so awesome! I never had such a great time with my family before! I blogged about last night already, and today after the theatre we went to a bar where we ate and drank together (all in all ten family members) and had a heluuvatime. We also took some pictures but the ones of my family aren't anybody's business and the ones at the comedy unfortunately don't look any good since I couldn't use my flashlight.
Anyhow - the theatre: good god it was hillarious! Two hours of so much fun you can't handle it. There are two guys (Volker Heißmann and Martin Rassau) and they are hillarious - especially Heißmann XD And good god he also sang some christmas songs with a big band in the background and FUCK he has an awesome voice O_O now I know why he also sings operas and stuff. Oh and the other guy, Rassau - he's gay - and made a funny joke about it today. In one sketch he played a drunk guy who runs a little cabin in which he sells "Glühwein" (it's hot whine which is a speciality and the Christmasmarket here in Nuremburg). Anyway, he tried to enter this cabin through the window since he was so drunk. Of course he couldn't make it so he entered the cabin from behind and said "Oh well, I'll go in from behind, that's how I'm used to it anyhow" XD I think you would've enjoyed it XD
Ah god, I would want to tell more about it but there were so many great jokes I can't even remember all of them. So I'll just leave this post like this, telling the world it's been an awesome night that ended in me spending real quality time with my family. There were no quarrels, nobody starting a serious discussion about anything, nothing. Just plain good fun. Seems like there really is something about christmas.

Oh one more thing while I'm talking about christmas - if I have to listen to WHAM's "Last Christmas" one more time I'm going to kill someone...

SotM: Definitely NOT "Last Christmas"

2002-12-19T14:47:00.000-08:00

Woah, tonight was fun as hell! At least the last part of it.
When I was at work today a colleague nearly collapsed - so that wasn't really the fun part. God I was shaking, probably more than her. She got cramps and threw up because, as she said, she probably ate something bad.
But when I got back from work I had to get my mom from the bar where she hangs out on thursdays with her friends. So I went there and one of her friends, Thomas (who is such a cool guy ^_^) told me I'm his guest for the night. So I told him I'm sorry but I'm here with the car to get my mom since I just got back from work. Now I only live like 5 mins away from that bar - which lead to my mom and Thomas persuading me to drive the car hgome, walk back to the bar and stay a little longer. Whcih I did. Oooooooh it was fun. I never thought hanging with my mom's people would be so nice ^_^ Drank two Smirnoff and a Bärwurz (you don't wanna know - it's german, it's nasty, it's tough ^_^), talked amd had loads of fun. And that on a thursday night when I didn't even expect I would have that much fun. God, I needed that. Also I told Thomas that we definitely had to go to the irish pub some time so most likely I'm going to hang with my mom and her "clique" more often from now on. God... what a weird thought... I feel old now but still good ^_^

OH! And I met a friend today I haven't seen in quite some time. And he had his new girlfriend with him... woah O_O where the heck does he find girls like thta in this area? *lol* oh well, I'll see him again Jan. 3rd when we go to a theatre where they play a frnaconian comedy. Can't wait - they do that every year, and every year it's fun as hell. And best of all - tomorrow I'm going to see more franconian comedy. Things just work fine lately. Everything's smooth.

On another note I got "Saga Frontier 2" for 8 bucks today. I'm happy now. O'er an' out.

SotM: "Taproot - Poem"

2002-12-19T08:22:00.000-08:00

Finally! A new template! I must admit it is very very simple, but it's a lot better than the last one. I only had that one up since "La noche en la isla" (the erotic layout) didn't work with all browsers. But this one is so simple it should work with every browser. Also it works in both 800x600 and 1024x768 resolution and I still like the layout. Dark and simple... and EEEEEEVIL! MWUAHAHAHAHA! And look look! I have links now ^__^ YAI! ... uhm ... I mean ... EEEEEEEEEVIL!

whoops.. gotta go to work now - see ya'all laterz taterz ... MWUAHAHAHAHAHA! EEEEEEEEEVIL!

2002-12-15T08:06:00.000-08:00

The Chris officially announces that he now has DSL Flatrate on HIS OWN computer!!! GO ME! HELL YEAH!

2002-12-12T05:31:00.000-08:00

I made a quiz about me!
Well, I was bored and needed to do something. So if you think you know me (or if you're bored enough) take it! MWUAHAHAHAHA! ...

2002-12-12T03:41:00.000-08:00

Boredom made me re-discover a piece of my youth. I dug out all the old issues of "Fun Generation" which was THE Multiplatform videogaming magazine of all times until they had to stop producing it. So here I sit with every single issue of this great mag to read through all the funny articles (some of that stuff was hillarious!) and spot a few old games I always wanted but never got. And what can I say? The first thing I did was getting "Return Fire" on eBay. I loved that game! I LOVED IT LOVED IT LOVED IT! Destroy everything in your way and listen to classic music? Hell - does it get any better? I don't think so. Anyhow, right now I'm halfway happy... if only I wouldn't have to work so much the next few days >_< Oh well, at least I get some money.

Also I decided to get an arcade machine on ebay. One of the old ones where you can switch the game cartridges. Sure, the games would be reall old but who cares? It's gonna be fun to have one of those WHEEEEEEE!

And thanks for your recommendation. Now I got four opinions on that matter and all four are different... go figure >_> this is going to be the hardest decision ever...

Oh, and last but not least here's a funny letter to Santa that you can write here (ripped from Allison). Mine looks like this:

Dear Santa,

I have been a good boy.

It really wasn't my fault what happened at Marc's Christmas party. It was Alex who spiked the punch with too much Caipirinha. I can't help it if I drank 17 glasses. It was so good---smelled and tasted just like Koelsch.

I thought it was funny when I put Flo's pants on my head and danced the Limbo on the couch while singing `Closer'. I didn't mean to break Marc's microwave and don't know why Marc would sue me for stealing.

I don't remember calling Stephan's wife a big pig---even though she looked like one with black eye shadow and pink lipstick!

And when I threw up on Inga's husband's Leg, it was only because I ate too much of that pizza.

After all that fun, I admit I was a little tired. So I fell asleep on my way home and drove my car through my neighbor's roof. I don't think that was any reason for my neighbor to call me a smelly frog and have me arrested for murder!

So, Santa...here I sit in my jail cell on Christmas Eve, all bouncy and sexy. And I'm really not to blame for any of this stupid stuff. Please bring me what I want the most---bail money!

Sincerely and up yours,
Chris (Really a nice boy!)

P.S. It's only 100 bucks!

And I finally took Meg's quiz!

Which CVFW8EV character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Weird... somehow nearly everyone get Ishmael huh? ^_^'

2002-12-09T13:12:00.000-08:00

First off - to you: the survey question "Single or Taken?" did, in my eyes, not mean "Are you single or taken?" but "Chose one: single or taken?" And right now I'm slowly getting sick and tired of certain circumstances so it was what just popped into my head. This isn't something I decide it is something I want to talk about with you. But now look at you survey - do you know now why I don't talk about my sex life? Look at the way you answered your sex-life questions. Reminds me of my own oppinion when it's about that ^_~

And now, before I kill my brain with thoughts I want to avoid right now (because love sucks - everybody repeat: we hate love, we love hate! YAI!) here, as promised a list of the tattoos I'm thinking about. Folks I need your help so tell me what you think.

Tribal Design #1 Turn this image 180° and imagine those tribals on my shoulders (kinda like wings)

Tribal Design #2 Looks nice. More than just a simple Tribal

Tribal Design #3 I love the spiralness of it

Tribal Design #4 Kicks ass

Tribal Design #5 Kicks even more ass but kinda big for your first tattoo...

Tribal Design #6 Neat-oh! Not too big and I could have it wherever I want

Angel Sanctuary Angel Tattoos are cool, what can I say. This would look neat on the back of your shoulder

Blame Right now my top favourite! Exactly like that with the framing. Either on my shoulder or on the back of my shoulder

Blade of the Immortal This looks so cool but I'm not sure whether I'd still like it in a few years... too Samuraiish

Countdown Stories #1 FUCK! I love this! The big image in the center would be across my back the girl going down on the left side of my spine. But it would be too big of a tattoo so right now probably not

Countdown Stories #2 Also awesome and since it's smaller this is more likely like something I'd get. Either on my shoulder or on my back

Random Panty Shot This is just so cute and sexy. I love the clichéness of it

Tita from Plastic Little Tita's my bitch and this would look good on the shoulder

Voice of Submission This was the cover of a Hentai Manga but damn this looks fucking awesome! This would be down my back but again - too big for a first tattoo. But if I get into tattooing I'll definitely keep that one in mind O.O

Now, the fact that I ask the people that read my blog for help on such an important matter shows that I trust you. Well, not the ones that freuqnetly read my blog because they happen to find it via perverted search queries on google but ... you know who you are. So your oppinions on these motives on an ugly male body would be appreciated *bows* thank you

Damn, this Lindt christmas chocolate kicks fucking ass! Too bad I already ate all of mine ^_^'

SotM: Marilyn Manson - Irresponsible Hate Anthem
Because I feel like it.

aaw fuck

2002-12-08T14:24:00.000-08:00

I'm seriously planning to get a tattoo for my 21st birthday. I picked a few really nice motives but still am not too sure. Maybe I'll post 'em some time to ask for help. So everyone who reads this get ready to help the Chris to make an important decision DUNDUNDUN!

Partly it's my cousins fault that I'm thinking about this. We got into a deeper conversation about having tattoos and now I want one again. And a propos cousin - she's the cousin from america. How cool is that? I finally am in contact with some relatives from the USA I didn't even know existed so far! Things are going great. And believe it or not there are really hot people in my family tree XD

And whee, today was cartoon day. First I watched "Ice Age" then "Mulan" and just now the first five episodes of Digi Charat. Now Digi Charat wasn't quite as funny as I expected but Ice Age and Mulan were HILLARIOUS! I laughed my ass off. I want my own "Scratch" XD

And while we're at watching stuff - I watched the "Evil Dead" DVD with Bruce Campbell's audio comment. This guy is so hillarious XD And damn the Marilyn Manson DVD is great! Okay the video footage isn't quite as good as the NIN Live DVD. Some video footage looks very cheap and like taped with old camcorders even. Maybe it's supposed to look stylistic but hell I want DVD quality! But still, this concert was AWESOME! Go watch that DVD. Damn I wanna go to a Marilyn Manson concert >_< And my plans to go see the Carmina Burana this year don't look too good neither since the tickets are expensive as shit. *sigh* oh well... Looking at it... I watched quite some stuff the last few days O_o I'm such a dork

And I wanted to take Meg's and Tenchi's quizzes but alas! My fucking internet connection is so damn slow that nothing works tonight. But my dad finally bought the jumper so I can use his DSL Flatrate from my computer. So by the end of this or next week I should be able to haunt the internet world again. Be afraid

And last but not least another survey WHEEEE! Cherry sent me this one:

I need: to make a decision soon (those tattoo motives are driving me nuts)
I find: that Scratch is hillarious
I want: Monica Bellucci, Elisha Cuthbert, Aria Giovanni, Jenna Jameson, Estella Warren, the list goes on. Hey, I'm a horny male being - so sue me!
I wish: I could do exactly what I want with my life without anyobstacles in my way
I love: you just as I love my dog XD
I hate: love, I love hate
I miss: those chicks we saw at the rock club friday night - damn! Watching them was so fucking entertaining! I don't need to explain any more do I?
I fear: being confronted with my fears some time

I feel: entertained
I hear: Bob Seger - Old time Rock'n'Roll XD
I smell: does air have a certain smell? If not I don't smell anything
I crave: for money to be able to pay for some certain things
I search: for answers to this survey
I wonder: whether I really should stay up and do pointless things like taking this survey
I regret: traveling to america since it made some decisions a lot harder

When was the last time you ...

Smiled?: Today
Laughed?: Today
Cried?: Good question, can't remember
Bought?: Like in "bought something in a store"? Hm... last week I bought a few DVDs
Danced?: A few days ago on my new PlayStation dance mat
Were sarcastic?: Aren't I always *wink wink*
Kissed someone?: Friday. If kissing someone goodbye counts
Talked to an ex?: Gosh that's been ages
Watched your favorite movie?: I have so many favourite movies I constantly end up watching one or another
Had a nightmare?: Last night... lately I'm haunted by dreams that contain gay guys trying to hit on me / rape me. It scares the shit out of me

A Last time for everything.......

Last book you read: Dante's "Divine Comedy"
Last movie you saw: Mulan
Last song you heard: Bob Seger - Old time Rock'n'Roll
Last thing you had to drink: Coke
Last time you showered: This morning
Last thing you ate: Those little chocolate drops you put in cakes and the like. My mom had left overs which I stole teehee

Do You...

Smoke?: Cigarillos. But only when I'm out with friends or once ina while after a good dinner
Do drugs?: No
Have sex?: Not right now
Sleep with stuffed animals?: No
Live in the moment?: Not really. But I try to enjoy the moments that are enjoyable
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Dunno. I wouldn't consider it that anymore though
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: No
Play an instrument?: I try my best at the drums
Believe there is life on other planets?: I am sure there is. Bacterias and the like count as life don't they. Organisms like these are probably to be found somewhere else as well. As for "martians" and "aliens"... I dunno.
Remember your first love?: Oh yeah, Sabine and I were the hottest couple in Kindergarten XD
Still love him/her?: Hell no
Read the newspaper?: Hardly
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: Only one to my knowledge. The sex life of my friends is none of my business
Believe in miracles?: So far I for sure never experienced one
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: No, not for me at least
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: Yes
Consider love a mistake?: Yes
Like the taste of alcohol?: Depends on what kind of alcohol. Some shots etc taste damn good
Have a favorite candy?: Oh yeah... those little red/yellowish drops that yo for sure don't know XD
Believe in astrology?: No
Believe in magic?: No
Believe in God?: I believe there is a spiritual entity but I do not believe in it
Pray?: No
Have any secrets?: Maybe
Have any pets?: No
Do well in school?: I GRADUATED THIS YEAR BABY! GO ME!
Go to or plan to go to college?: University
Have a major?: My majors were english and art
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: *lol* As if any strangers would IM me! HA!
Wear hats?: Uhm... no
Have any piercings?: No
Have any tattoos?: Not yet (but my 21st birthday is coming up soon ^_~)
Hate yourself?: Sometimes
Have an obsession?: Zombie and Splatter movies
Have a secret crush?: No
Do they know yet?: ~
Collect anything?: Not anymore
Have a best friend?: No, all friends are of equal value to me
Wish on stars?: Nope
Like your handwriting?: *LOL* My handwriting sucks ass dood!
Have any bad habits?: I bite my lips

01. Pierce your nose or tongue? Tongue
02. Be serious or be funny? Depends on the situation. But I'd say funny
03. Boxers or briefs? Definitely boxers
04. Whole or skim milk? Don't care
05. Single or Taken? Single
06. Simple or complicated? If possible simple for me. But then again if you manage to handle something complicated it feels darned good
07. Law or anarchy? Law
08. Flowers or angels? I'd love to see an angel some time
09. Grey or gray? Gray since it's derived from the german "Grau" which is written with an a
10. Read or write? Read, I suck at writing
11. Color or black-and-white photos? Depends, but black and white is very classy
12. Sunrise or sunset? Sunset
13. M&M's or Skittles? M&M's
14. Rap or rock? Rock
15. Stay up late or wake up late? Both if possible ^_^
16. TV or Radio? Depends on what mood I'm in and whether there's something on on any of those two
17. Is it POP or SODA? It's cokca cola or pepsi to my knowledge
18. X or O in Tic-tac-toe? X
19. Blue or black? Black. If it has to be blue then a dark blue
20. Eat an apple or an orange? Apple
21. What came first the chicken or the egg? Good question. I'd say egg
22. Hot or Cold? Hot
23. Big towel or little towel? Big
24. Tall members of the opposite sex or short? A little shorter than me
25. Sun or moon? Moon, sun is annoying as piss when it's shining directly into your face. Other than that sun is great, too
26. Emerald or ruby? I couldn't care less
27. Sex in the morning or night? Both? Hey, a guy my age is ready to go 15 to 20 minutes after he had his "shot" so why not the morning after?
28. Left or right? Right
29. 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? 1 best friend
30. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? Straciatella
31. High or Drunk? Never been high so I had to go with drunk
32. Green beans or carrots? Carrots
33. Low fat or fat free? Don't care as long as it tastes good
34. Love or Lust? Tough decision. Right now I'd go with lust
35. Chewable or non chewable vitamins? Why artificial vitamins when I could as well et some fruit?
36. Kids or no kids? Right now no kids for me please
37. Cat or dog? Dog
38. Half empty or half full? Half empty
39. Mustard or ketchup? Ketchup
40. Hard cover books or paper back books? Hard cover
41. Newspaper or magazine? Magazine
42. Sandals or sneakers? Sneakers
43. Wonder or amazemet? Amazement
44. Red car or white car? White
45. Happy and poor or sad and rich? I'm sad and poor and I'm fine with the sad part so far. So gimme money
46. Singing or dancing? I suck at both
47. Corduroy or plaid? What does that mean (seems like somebody's vocab sucks teehee)
48. Happy or sad? Happy
49. Purple or green? Purple
50. A year of hot sex or a lifetime of friendship? Depends with whom.

HAVE YOU EVER:
52. Been kissed? Yes
53. Done drugs? No
54. Eaten sushi? Yes and I didn't like it too much
55. Eaten an entire box of oreos? We don't have oreos here
56. Been dumped? No O was spared of that so far
57. Had someone be unfaithful to you? No
58. Gotten in a car accident? Yes
60. Hiked a mountain? Sort of
61. Stayed home on a Saturday night just because? Yes, several times ^_^

DO YOU PREFER:
62. Lace or satin underwears? Satin
63. Blue or Red? Blue
64. New or old? New
65. Rain or snow? Either soft rain or heavy snow ^_^'
66. Have you ever slept outside? Yes
67. Give or receive? Depends
68. Rose or Daisy? I only know Daisy Duck so I'd go with rose
69. Private school or public school? I'm not sure but isn't private actually public and public actually private in america and england? Dunno, never mind
70. History or Science? Ah damn, both are interesting
71. English or math? English
72. Do you like someone right now from the opposite sex? I try not to
73. A slight crush on a certain guy? Guy? *LOL* HELLOOOOOOO! BRANDON BOYD'S MY BITCH!
74. What do you look for in a woman or man? I don't know. Give me a woman and I tell ya whether she's what I've been looking for
75. Do you have a best friend? No, again all my friends are of equal value to me
76. Who's your cutest friend? Cutest? Well... Alex is kinda cute but not lookwise. He's a little small and really funny when drunk ^_^
77. Who do you e-mail the most? Right now my cousin Ashley
78. How many people have you slept with: None of your business
79. Do you have b/f or g/f: *shruggs* Not sure. Spare me with those questions right now.
80. Your sexiest feature: Don't have any
81. Kinky things you like: Damn straight - but don't expect me to tell ya
82. Largest age difference between you and a partner: Who cares? If my partner is ten years younger than me now she'd be 50 when I'm 60. Now would that be a big problem? No so who cares for age differences?
83. Are you tired of this survey?: Kind of
84. Do you want to stop?: Well, I could carry on but stopping wouldn't be all that bad
85. Did you have fun?: As fun as a survey can get

SotM: Herbert Grönemeyer - Der Weg
Wow, gives me goosebumps. One of the most beautiful (and honest) love sings I've ever heard. And I'm not even in a cheezy mood.

2002-12-02T02:31:00.000-08:00

Okay, I need to kill some time till my Mom gets up so I can take her to the mall where both she and I have to do some christmas shopping... I hate christmas shopping >_<

Anyhow - how do we kill time? EXACTLY! QUIZZES AND SURVEYS! YAI!

First off - I'm not a girl but I like sluts - so I took the test anyway and got two results since I couldn't decide on one question ^_^

What's your sexual appeal?
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What's your sexual appeal?
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And now some random stuff ... WHEEEEEE~

Which Utena guy are you?
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What kind of porno would you star in?
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~hehehehe~ ... *cough* no comment ^_^

What Aspect of Run Lola Run are You?
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what fucked version of hello kittie are you?
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What's your brand of sexy?
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*sigh* I wanna be a woman like that... then I could touch myself all day BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Are you a sex fiend?
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What's your sex style?
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Seems like I'm cursed to be that "sweet loving" person.. darned... I wanna hump someone >_<

Which Sexy Guy are you?
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aaaaare you one of the sexiest men in the world?
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Are you sexxy?
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And I swear to god I did not make that up! That was my honest result at that quizz O_o

Now here's survey taken from the Megster

1. What's your name? Chris(tian) Schönlein
2. What color pants are you wearing? Beige
3. What are you listening to right now? Nothing... but good diea - lemme turn on some music
4. What are the last four digits of your phone number? 0056
5. What was the last thing you ate? This dry rice chuncks with chocolate over them
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? A dark blue
7. Where do you plan to go on your honeymoon? Some island... no people... lots of sex. Sounds like a plan to me
9. Last person you talked to on the phone? Marc
10. First thing you notice about the opposite sex? Facial features
11. Do you like the person that sent you this? Meg didn't really send me but I still like her ^_^
12.Do you like cheese? Not really. But I can eat it when it's in my food, so I don't really HATE it y'know.
13. Your favorite drink? Lately I seem to dig orange juice
14. Do you like Cheddar Cheese? See #12
15. How do you eat an Oreo? uhm... take one out of the bag and put it in your mouth?
16. Favorite sport? Active: Badminton / Passive: Football
17. What's the next CD you're going to get? Probably "Andrew WK"'s Album
18. Hair color? Natural: Dark Blonde / Right now: Black
19. Eye Color? Brown
20. Do you wear contacts? No
21. Siblings and their ages? Nadine, 13 years (soon to be 14)
22. Favorite month? I couldn't care less
23. Favorite food? mmmmh.... food. I like everything really, just feed me already (pizza, fast food and wraps would be fine)
24. Last movie you watched? "Was nicht passt, wird passend gemacht" XD
25. Are you too shy to ask someone out? Yes
26. Do you like scary or happy movies better? Depends
27. Summer or winter? Depends
28. Hugs or kisses? Depends
29. Relationship or one night stands?? Depends
30. Chocolate or vanilla? Straciatella - I like to have the best of both worlds
31. Who is most likely to respond? Dunno... whoever's bored enough to kill some time
32. Who is least likely to respond? Whoever doesn't care for surveys maybe? *duh*
33. Living arrangements? Still at my parent's house
34. What books are you reading? Right now Dante's Divine Comedy / Next book: Operation Rainbow by Tom Clancy
35. Favorite smell? Old libraries, gas stations, grass after heavy rain stuff like that
36. Least favorite smell? FOR ME TO POOP ON! XD
37. Favorite sound? A girl with a hot voice moaning XD
38. Worst feeling in the world? Being all alone, emotionally that is
39. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the Morning? Just five more minutes
40. Favorite color? Black (although it's no color)
41. How many rings before you answer the phone? As soon as I reach the phone I answer it... is there a problem with it?
42. Future child's names? *shruggs* I didn't think that far yet
43. Do you think the glass is half empty or half full? Half empty
45. Favorite movie? Too many to list 'em here
46. What's under your bed? Nothing... maybe some dust. Oh no wait! One of the wooden frames that cracked and fell off recently ^_^'
47. What is your Favorite number? Don't really have one
48. One nice thing about the person that sent this to you? Meg is a very talented artist
49. Favorite TV shows? Whatever's on I can kill some time with, 30 minute sitcoms for example (Friends, Simpsons, Will & Grace etc)
50. Who do you have a crush on right now?
51. Who is your richest friend? Either Marc Z. or Stephan B.
52. Describe the person that sent this to u in one word? Depressed (although she shouldn't be)
53. Who's your best friend? Don't have one
54. If u had a choice to pick anyone to hang out with right now who would it be? Anyone really? hehe... Elisha Cuthbert maybe *grins*
55. Who's the prettiest person u know? There are quite a few pretty I know so I couldn't pick ONE
56. What is your fav pet? I wanna Penguin, a Bear or a Tiger

2002-11-30T08:28:00.000-08:00

FOLKS! THIS IS GENIOUS! All you DDR Freaks listen up:
So I bought another dance pad today since my old one's broke. But guess what? The new one was messed up too! So I gave it back and now I still am lost without a functioning dance pad... but then I found this. A tutorial on how to build your own DDR Metal Dance Pad - Arcade style! You build it out of wood and metal (it'll cost you around 135$) so this is as close to arcade as you can get without buying an arcade pad (ca. 1800$) or the full arcade game (ca. 3500$). Check it out:
http://www.digitaltorque.com/dancepad/instructions.html

2002-11-27T10:55:00.000-08:00

*Hi-fives back* DAMN STRAIGHT! Devil Squares RULE ALL! But I couldn't settle with only two wrappers ( = 4 Devil Squares). When I started eating those I made my way through a little more than half of the package and later that day I would eventually eat the rest of it... they're addicting.

In other news... I don't feel good. Time zones are bad, need sleep. I can't sleep during the night anymore, but throughout the day I'm tired as shit. So today I swore to myself I'd stay up till 10pm (and no naps throughout the day) and then go to sleep. I hope it works. Wish me luck. The deprive of sleep made me feel so sick lately... gah

2002-11-25T15:06:00.000-08:00

What the...? My Dad formatted his comp and used the old hd content as a slave now (so I could make backups of my stuff). Also he installed a firewall so his computer wouldn't get messed up ever again. Which means I won't be able to do ANYTHING anymore. AIM is the only thing that halfway runs... so that means I won't be online too much until he either installs the internet sharing thing (which is not likely to happen since not even the network works anymore at all) or I get my own dsl flatrate (which is more likely to happen). So... we'll see. I hope by January or maybe February next year I have my own Internet access... and from then on I'll be online 24/7 since I'll leavy my comp on all the time ... well, maybe not 24/7 but a lot
*sigh*
I'll be browing the internet in search for good and cheap DSL Flat offers >_>